Wow! I so needed to read what everyone else with ALS is going through. I'm just sorry you are.
Yesterday I took a shower and I was alone, and could not get up from the chair. I sat for about a 1/2 hour and then I mustered the strength to get up. I knew my husband would not be able to get me up. We have a Hoyer lift but it is downstairs. I got dressed, and was done for the day. No more strength.
Today I woke up with a cold, and feel horrible. I got up at 6am and then went back to bed until 1pm. I asked my husband to fix me some soup, and he said yes, but then totally forgot about it. By 2pm I was starving and thirsty. I had to ask him again, and he got up and fixed just the soup - nothing to drink. I had to ask him for ice water and I know he was not happy about that. He forgets to feed me a lot. Food is not a huge priority to him. I hate that I have to ask him, but that's the way it is.
My husband is insisting on living in this two-story house, and he believes he can take care of me. He is disabled having had three back surgeries, and has permanent nerve damage to his left leg (drop foot). Our house is beautiful and I want him to have this wonderful house when I am gone, but something has got to change when I get my motorized wheelchair. I have to be able to get around the house, so some of the furniture has to go. I'm waiting for him to see this for himself once I get it.
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But, yes, I hear that I'm not a burden. Damn it! I am a pain in the ass, and I hate being this way.
Don't worry about me, though, I have long-term care insurance, and I'm seeing a nurse this week. I have a lot of support, and I will be vocal about my situation and what I need. My husband just does not think like me. I take care of problems before they happen, and he takes care of problems when they occur. I can't take care of anything anymore, so I have to abide by his way of thinking and know that problems will get taken care of eventually.
Hugs,
Deb