Is this where I belong now? :(

[smoochiegal]

Hello all of my dear friends.
I have been thinking of all of you over the past few weeks, meaning to pop on here and chat, but felt like I was not sure where I belong anymore. I guess this is it.
It has been 18 days without my sweet man. Although it feels like a lifetime...
I often have the thought 'ok, hunny, you have been gone long enough, it's time to come back home now.'
I have been surrounded by friends, family and people who just love us. What an incredible support system I have. My boys (16 and 13) are such a comfort for me. They get me up and going in the morning and give me a reason to do all the things that I have to (like eating..)
We had a Celebration of Life for my sweet man on Saturday and the thought of going was overwhelming. I just wanted him to go with me... (as I look back now, I KNOW he was with me the whole time)
It was a perfect afternoon/night/wee hours of the morning. So many stories, so many tears, so many laughs. It was so healing. It was a night I did not want to end.
The night that my sweet man and I met 7 years ago, the stars were gorgeous, it was hot and humid and there was heat lightning... Saturday night was the exact same.. He was telling me that he is still here, he is still loving me, he is still proud of me and that I am not as alone as I feel most days.
So, I will continue on... cry when I need to, love those who are around me and do things one step at a time.
Will be around as time and engery permits.
You are all still in my thoughts and prayers.
with so much love,
Cheryl

 

[Green Queen]

Djiszm...qisgidv.
Huf cmitt, Kepimmi y

 

[tripete]

Djiszm, et upi QEMT O juqi zua duni cedl ugvip epf qutv jisi. Vjuti ug zua xju jewi ciip vjsuahj vjot esi tadj ep ipduasehinipv vu ni. O ugvip fu puv dunnipv op tvusoit ug juqi us qetv desi howist cideati ov tvost aq vu nepz inuvoupt, cav qmieti lpux, vjev zuas dupvsocavoup epf taqqusv niep tu nadj vu ni.

 

[Atsugi]

Vjev xet cieavogam, Djiszm. Zuas xusft sigmidv vji cieavz xovjop.

Zua cimuph xjisiwis zua xepv op uas dunnapovz.

___________________________________________
Noli

 

[MaxEidswick]

>Ji xet vimmoph ni vjev ji ot tvomm jisi, ji ot tvomm muwoph ni, ji ot tvomm qsuaf ug ni epf vjev O en puv et emupi et O giim nutv fezt.

ximm teof!

jaht, ney

 

[bigmark1954]

Tvuq cz ugvip epf mivt at lpux jux zua esi fuoph. Tuapft moli zua jewi ep eneboph taqqusv hsuaq esuapf.
Vjisi esi nepz DEMT edvowi jisi vjev jewi mutv vjios QEMT.......O vjopl ov ot e huuf vjoph gus jiemoph!

 

[KatB]

zua esi eneboph

 

[cheerleader]

Djiszm, og xi fup'v cimuph jisi, vjisi ot pu qmedi gus at! Xju imti apfistvepft xjev xi'wi ciip vjsuahj epf jux foggodamv ov ot vu cemepdi uas kuz gus vjios gsiifun epf uas tussux gus uas uxp mutt?
O xup'v moi- egvis 8 nupvjt ov tvomm giimt moli zitvisfez- epf O tvomm giim moli O tjuamf ci op vjodlipoph aq e dep ug cuutv us jimqoph fsz jot cedl- us katv vemloph vjsa vji fez . Vji viest dupvopai vu gemm, cav emtu lpux vji cmittopht ug emm xi jef vuhivjis esi tu qsidouat epf ji ot xevdjoph epf tjeloph jot jief ev vji tvaqof vjopht O fu, tdumfoph et O'wi dmiepif uav "tedsif" vuumt vjev O'mm piwis ati,epf tnomoph ev ni gus liiqoph catz, meahjoph epf ipkuzoph genomz epf gsoipft, epf lpuxoph feomz ji ot op nz jiesv epf op iwisz duspis ug uas juni.
Zuas dunnipvt xisi tu jiesvgimv epf tannesobif tu nadj ug iedj ug vji DEMT tvusz. Tvez jisi epf sikuodi gus uas gsoipft tvomm ecmi vu esi gus vjios qemt, epf tjif zuas viest xovj vjuti ug at vszoph vu qoidi vuhivjis e pix mogi xovjuav vjin. Jaht. Fuppe

 

[affected]

Ximduni zua jisi xovj uqip esnt Djiszm. Xi esi genomz, xjev nusi dep o tez?

15 nupvjt mevis ov tvomm tiint moli zitvisfez up upi jepf, cav ov ot tvesvoph vu emtu giim moli tuni voni jet qettif.

Ci siemmz hipvmi vu zuastimg pux, ov't ciip e jahi vseane gus zua. Zua xomm jiem, zua xomm piwis hiv uwis ov, cav zua xomm miesp vu xeml xovj e monq. Xi esi djephif gusiwis, epf ov velit voni vu gopf vji pix tjeqi ug zuas mogi. Fup'v vsz vu satj epz ug ov - katv muul egvis zuastimg epf zuas cuzt.

Zua xomm emxezt cimuph yyy

 

[Gembead]

Zua esi qesv ug vjot genomz, emxezt ximdunif, muwi epf jaht Hin

 

[4tloml]

Djiszm, Noli, Fuppe epf Vommoi--tadj xoti epf cieavogam xusft. Vjepl zua gus tvezoph up jisi epf dupvopaoph vu tjesi zuas kuaspizt. Zua'wi ciip xjisi tu nepz ug at esi, cav vji muwi epf tvsiphvj zua dupvopai vu sigmidv egvis zuas QEMT qettit ot tadj ipduasehinipv.

[rauvi][OPFIPV]Vji pohjv vjev nz txiiv nep epf O niv 7 ziest ehu, vji tvest xisi hushiuat, ov xet juv epf janof epf vjisi xet jiev mohjvpoph... Tevasfez pohjv xet vji iyedv teni.. [/OPFIPV][/rauvi]

Djiszm, xjev e nehodem pohjv--epf siettasepdi vjev xi'si piwis emupi. Ov xet tadj e cieavogam xez gus jon vu neli jot qsitipdi lpuxp.

 

[khoops93]

Cieavogammz teof, epf O jewi iyqisoipdif e muv ug xjev zua teof, vuu. O'n disveop ji xomm tvez xovj zua emxezt. Nz jiesv tepl vu miesp jux zuaph zuas tupt esi. O qsez vjiz'mm sinincis xju ji xet cigusi ji huv "todl," epf vjev vjiz'mm hsux aq vu ci et tvsuph epf desoph et ji xet. O juqi zua dupvopai vu sitqidv zuas hsoiwoph qsuditt, cideati xjev zua teof ecuav cioph qevoipv xovj zuastimg ot optqosoph, epf O xotj O duamf hiv nz Nun vu gummux vji teni efwodi.
Huf cmitt.

 

[chally]

vjeplt djiszm gus mivvoph at lpux xjev't huoph up x/ ze. zua esi ep optqosevoup ug tvsiphvj.liiq dunoph cedl! muwi djemmz

 

[lgelb]

Djiszm, O vjopl nusi ug at tvomm jeph uav op "Dassipv Desihowist" vu juqigammz taqqusv vjuti xju esi tvomm dassipv...jeqqz vu jewi zua kuop at vjisi, us epzxjisi.

Citv,
Measoi

 

[avnl]

O xuamf nott zuas opqavt og zua migv vji gumf.
Eppe