smoochiegal
Active member
- Joined
- Jan 3, 2015
- Messages
- 87
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 08/2014
- Country
- CA
- State
- Ontario
- City
- Otonabee
Hello all of my dear friends.
I have been thinking of all of you over the past few weeks, meaning to pop on here and chat, but felt like I was not sure where I belong anymore. I guess this is it.
It has been 18 days without my sweet man. Although it feels like a lifetime...
I often have the thought 'ok, hunny, you have been gone long enough, it's time to come back home now.'
I have been surrounded by friends, family and people who just love us. What an incredible support system I have. My boys (16 and 13) are such a comfort for me. They get me up and going in the morning and give me a reason to do all the things that I have to (like eating..)
We had a Celebration of Life for my sweet man on Saturday and the thought of going was overwhelming. I just wanted him to go with me... (as I look back now, I KNOW he was with me the whole time)
It was a perfect afternoon/night/wee hours of the morning. So many stories, so many tears, so many laughs. It was so healing. It was a night I did not want to end.
The night that my sweet man and I met 7 years ago, the stars were gorgeous, it was hot and humid and there was heat lightning... Saturday night was the exact same.. He was telling me that he is still here, he is still loving me, he is still proud of me and that I am not as alone as I feel most days.
So, I will continue on... cry when I need to, love those who are around me and do things one step at a time.
Will be around as time and engery permits.
You are all still in my thoughts and prayers.
with so much love,
Cheryl
I have been thinking of all of you over the past few weeks, meaning to pop on here and chat, but felt like I was not sure where I belong anymore. I guess this is it.
It has been 18 days without my sweet man. Although it feels like a lifetime...
I often have the thought 'ok, hunny, you have been gone long enough, it's time to come back home now.'
I have been surrounded by friends, family and people who just love us. What an incredible support system I have. My boys (16 and 13) are such a comfort for me. They get me up and going in the morning and give me a reason to do all the things that I have to (like eating..)
We had a Celebration of Life for my sweet man on Saturday and the thought of going was overwhelming. I just wanted him to go with me... (as I look back now, I KNOW he was with me the whole time)
It was a perfect afternoon/night/wee hours of the morning. So many stories, so many tears, so many laughs. It was so healing. It was a night I did not want to end.
The night that my sweet man and I met 7 years ago, the stars were gorgeous, it was hot and humid and there was heat lightning... Saturday night was the exact same.. He was telling me that he is still here, he is still loving me, he is still proud of me and that I am not as alone as I feel most days.
So, I will continue on... cry when I need to, love those who are around me and do things one step at a time.
Will be around as time and engery permits.
You are all still in my thoughts and prayers.
with so much love,
Cheryl