sironside
Active member
- Joined
- Apr 2, 2008
- Messages
- 30
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- US
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- md
- City
- salisbury
This is an old tune that I'm tired of playing. My swallowing and speech are getting worse and my hands are shaky every day. Bottom line is that I can't cope. No one knows what's wrong, all I can do is hope I will get better. I'm scared out of my mind and really depressed. I just want to drink enough to numb my thoughts and symptoms and hope that I don't wake up the next day. My husband is being a real jerk about my problems and is very neglectful emotionally. The only time he gives me attention is when he is trying to get laid. My mother is moving in a few months and has no idea how to help me even though she is a psychiatrist. My father lives 2 hours away and is also not very supportive. I'm in nursing school and also working as a nursing assistant for health insurance because my dear husband can't seem to keep a job (he keeps quitting jobs and doesn't work for weeks at a time). I'm so alone and no one to comfort and support me. I don't want to eat anymore, I just want to drink until I don't feel the pain. I can't get myself to call a counselor because I'm not sure if my insurance covers it and I have no money. I'm sorry for posting this, I know a lot of you guys are going through tougher times than me and it makes me feel bad that I feel this sorry for myself.
I'm so sorry...
I'm so sorry...