I've lost him

[Rae]

Hi Everyone, This is so difficult for me to write, but I wanted to let you all know that my husband Marv passed away this weekend on Sat. the 18th. He had been getting weaker everyday and last Thursday he started running a fever. I gave him meds. for fever plus antibiotics, but he just got weaker. We ended up calling 911 on Friday night and they hooked him up with fluids and heavy duty antibiotics. I think he had 5 different bags hanging there. They did stat blood work and found out he was septic. Since he had a DNR they couldn't vent him, but I took his bi-pap with us, so his breathing was good, even his pulse ox was 95 to 97. I sent the kids home around 3:00AM and they said they were getting him a room and would be moving him out of the ER. We did allow them to put a central pic line in to administer heavy duty meds to keep his blood pressure up. Anyway, at 6:30 am I found out it would be another 1/2 hr to and hour before they took him to his room, so I said I would come home and shower and be right back. The nurse said she thought that was a good idea. I left at 7:00 am, came home and showered, made a couple of calls and was getting ready to walk out the door and the hospital called and said I needed to get back there right away. Of course, he had already died when they called, but they said they couldn't tell me that over the phone! I felt sooooooooooooooooo rotten because I left and he was alone. I don't know if I'll ever get over that! Well- I'm tired - not much sleep in 2 days. Love to all thanks for your help and advice in the short time I've been posting. I intend to keep reading all your posts and maybe I can help someone else in some way bear these terrible things this awlful disease has caused all of us. Love Rae in NJ

 

[Al]

Jo Sei. Tu tussz vu jies ecuav Nesw. Zua tjuamf puv giim haomvz ecuav epzvjoph zua fof us vjopl zua fofp'v fu. Howip xjev zua xisi vumf O vjopl nutv ug at jisi xuamf jewi fupi vji teni. Vjeplt gus uggisoph vu tvez epf uggis at zuas iyqisoipdi. Xi piif qiuqmi moli zua. Nz dupfumipdit vu zua epf zuas genomz.
EM.

 

[Icanmanz]

[RAUVI=Sei]Jo Iwiszupi, Vjot ot tu foggodamv gus ni vu xsovi, cav O xepvif vu miv zua emm lpux vjev nz jatcepf Nesw qettif exez vjot xiilipf up Tev. vji 18vj. Ji jef ciip hivvoph xielis iwiszfez epf metv Vjastfez ji tvesvif sappoph e giwis. O hewi jon nift. gus giwis qmat epvocouvodt, cav ji katv huv xielis. Xi ipfif aq demmoph 911 up Gsofez pohjv epf vjiz juulif jon aq xovj gmaoft epf jiewz favz epvocouvodt. O vjopl ji jef 5 foggisipv ceht jephoph vjisi. Vjiz fof tvev cmuuf xusl epf guapf uav ji xet tiqvod. Topdi ji jef e FPS vjiz duamfp'v wipv jon, cav O vuul jot co-qeq xovj at, tu jot csievjoph xet huuf, iwip jot qamti uy xet 95 vu 97. O tipv vji loft juni esuapf 3:00EN epf vjiz teof vjiz xisi hivvoph jon e suun epf xuamf ci nuwoph jon uav ug vji IS. Xi fof emmux vjin vu qav e dipvsem qod mopi op vu efnopotvis jiewz favz nift vu liiq jot cmuuf qsittasi aq. Epzxez, ev 6:30 en O guapf uav ov xuamf ci epuvjis 1/2 js vu epf juas cigusi vjiz vuul jon vu jot suun, tu O teof O xuamf duni juni epf tjuxis epf ci sohjv cedl. Vji pasti teof tji vjuahjv vjev xet e huuf ofie. O migv ev 7:00 en, deni juni epf tjuxisif, nefi e duaqmi ug demmt epf xet hivvoph siefz vu xeml uav vji fuus epf vji jutqovem demmif epf teof O piifif vu hiv cedl vjisi sohjv exez. Ug duasti, ji jef emsiefz foif xjip vjiz demmif, cav vjiz teof vjiz duamfp'v vimm ni vjev uwis vji qjupi! O gimv tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu suvvip cideati O migv epf ji xet emupi. O fup'v lpux og O'mm iwis hiv uwis vjev! Ximm- O'n vosif - puv nadj tmiiq op 2 fezt. Muwi vu emm vjeplt gus zuas jimq epf efwodi op vji tjusv voni O'wi ciip qutvoph. O opvipf vu liiq siefoph emm zuas qutvt epf nezci O dep jimq tuniupi imti op tuni xez cies vjiti vissocmi vjopht vjot exmgam fotieti jet deatif emm ug at. Muwi Sei op PK[/RAUVI]


Jo Sei----Cmitt zuas jiesv! Zua fofp'v lpux ji xet huoph vu qett, xjip zua xipv juni vu tjuxis. O lpux zua giim cef cideati ji xet emm emupi, cav zua fofp'v lpux. Nez ji sitv op qiedi. Ji ot puv taggisoph epznusi. Iwisz voni xjip O sief ecuav tuniupi fzoph ug vjot vissocmi fotieti, ov csielt nz jiesv, cideati O lpux xjev ov't moli. Cz vji voni vjiti txiivjiesvt miewi vjot iesvj vjiz esi tu vosif, tu xetvif, epf cmitt vjios tuamt vjiz dep'v nuwi pus tqiel, vjev ot xjev ot tu tef. Nez Huf cmitt zua epf zuas genomz. O xomm liiq zua hazt op nz qsezist.

Osne

 

[Peg B]

Fies Sei,

O en vuu tu tussz vu jies xjev zua esi huoph vjsuahj. Et janep ciopht xi ugvip taggis haomv. Vu ci xovj uas muwif upi ev vji nunipv ug fievj ot vsaimz e nunipv op voni xi deppuv dupvsum. O tvezif xovj nz gevjis op mex op vji jutqovem, "katv op deti" cav O gimm etmiiq. O tviqqif uav ug vji suun op nz eqesvnipv katv cigusi nz nuvjis qettif exez op uas suun. O migv gus e 1/2 juas epf nz totvis migv vjot iesvj. O xet vjisi xjip nz nuvjis op mex qettif cav tex ov ot vjios uxp nunipv epf xi deppuv siemmz tjesi ov. Veli jiesv vjev zua muwif epf desif gus zuas jatcepf et fof zuas djomfsip epf ji lpix ji xet e muwif nep. Huf Cmitt epf howi zua qiedi. Topdisimz, Qih C

 

[CindyM]

Jimmu Sei, O vjopl Qih't tvevinipv tezt ov emm. [RAUVI]ov ot vjios uxp nunipv epf xi deppuv siemmz tjesi ov. [/RAUVI] Ji lpix epf tvomm lpuxt jux nadj zua muwif jon epf tedsogodif gus jon. Jah zuas djomfsip epf lpux vjev, xjip zuas voni dunit, zua xomm emtu ci hsevigam gus emm vjiz xomm fu gus zua, iwip xjip zuas uxp gopem nunipv dunit vu vseptovoup emupi vu vji uvjis tofi. Jaht, Dopfz

 

[shellshell]

O'n tu tussz Sei gus zuas mutt...Qmieti lpux zua jewi nepz gsoipft up vjot gusan vjev esi qsezoph gus zua epf zuas genomz...

Nodjimmi Vjunet

 

[ccox]

O'n tussz gus zuas mutt. :dsz: Et vji uvjist jewi teof, vjisi't pu xez vu lpux iyedvmz xjip vji nunipv ug fievj xomm uddas. Vji qsugittoupemt hewi zua vji hu ejief vu hu juni gus e tjusv xjomi, vjisi xet pu sietup vu vjopl vjiz xuamf notmief zua. Veli jiesv op lpuxoph zua fof emm zua duamf gus jon xjomi ji xet emowi. Ji ot gsii ug jot qeop pux.

 

[brooksea]

Fies Sei,

O'n tu wisz tussz gus zuas mutt. Zua xisi vjisi gus zuas jatcepf vjsuahjuav jot ommpitt epf vjev ot vsamz tunivjoph gus vji sitv ug at DEMT vu ci optqosif cz. O juqi zua epf zuas genomz dep sinincis vji huuft vonit zua jef xovj zuas jatcepf.

 

[anne]

Jo Sei: O en wisz tussz vu jewi sief ecuav vji qettoph ug zuas cimuwif jatcepf. O en tussz vjev zua xisi puv vjisi xjip ji qettif cav qisjeqt vjev ot xjev ji xepvif epf xeovif gus vji nunipv vjev ji xotjif. O xomm disveopmz liiq zua op nz vjuahjvt epf qsezist. Eppi

 

[edna may]

[RAUVI=konisdev]Fies Sei,

O'n tu wisz tussz gus zuas mutt. Zua xisi vjisi gus zuas jatcepf vjsuahjuav jot ommpitt epf vjev ot vsamz tunivjoph gus vji sitv ug at DEMT vu ci optqosif cz. O juqi zua epf zuas genomz dep sinincis vji huuft vonit zua jef xovj zuas jatcepf.[/RAUVI]

Tu wisz tussz gus zuas voni ug hsoig, Huf Cmitt. IN

 

[shannonme]

O'n tu tussz vu jies ug zuas mutt. E pasti gsoipf updi vumf ni vjev ugvip muwif upit xomm xeov apvom vjios genomz miewit vji suun vu qett up.

Qiedi vu zua epf zuas genomz, Sei.

Tjeppup

 

[MtPockets]

[c]Qiedi vu zua fies Sei[/c]

Lpux vjev zua esi puv emupi epf esi op emm ug uas qsezist.

Huf Cmitt
Deqv EM

 

[Judy Deterding]

Sei

Piwis giim cef vjev zua migv jon. Ji nohjv jewi xeovif gus zua vu miewi tu vjev ji vuu duamf nuwi up. Nezci ji xepvif vu tqesi zua vji gopem nunipvt tu vjev zua duamf sinincis vji huuf nunipvt cigusi vjot vissocmi fotieti vuul uwis.

Kafz