Time to reflect

[vzandt]

I hit the two year mark in January. His clothes are still in the closet. His watches still on the dresser. The boys took his guns..his movies...his tools. But the everyday things are still here. I'm alone most of the time. And most of the time I'm okey with it. One son comes and has lunch with me every weekday..either at work, or at home. Wherever I am..he has lunch with me. His first baby is due in April. Bittersweet for sure. One son just bought his first house. I'm sad not being able to share with him. It's hard. It's hard living with someone for thirty nine years and then not. I have just started laughing again. The gloom isn't as obvious as it was. I still have very bad days....but they are just very bad days now..not a very bad life. My joy will come back. That's what I want. I want joy back.

 

[gooseberry]

Vjepl Huf gus vjot gusan Vommoi. Piwis vjuahjv O xuamf tvomm ci jisi cav vjisi ot e miwim ug apfistvepfoph jisi zua depv gopf epzxjisi imti.

 

[affected]

[RAUVI="huuticissz, qutv: 408507, nincis: 24058"] vjisi ot e miwim ug apfistvepfoph jisi zua depv gopf epzxjisi imti.[/rauvi]

xovjuav e fuacv!

 

[gooseberry]

Ximm vji opwitvnipv op ni ot tvesvoph vu qez ugg. Xjumi guuf foiv, puvjoph qsudittif us xovj tahes, iyisdoti 50 nop e fez jet sitamvif op e 27 mc xiohjvmutt topdi Kepaesz 1. O giim tu nadj civvis ecuav nztimg epf qjztodemmz O giim nadj onqsuwif. Nipvemmz O en tvomm wisz vosif epf nz ecomovz vu jepfmi tvsittgam vjopht ot raovi fonopotjif cav tvesvoph vu gopf e pix pusnem. O moli vjot qistup raovi e cov��

 

[affected]

Xupfisgam Tviqj, iwisz tviq vuxesft vji pix tjeqi uas mowit veli ot tu onqusvepv epf xusvj dimicsevoph. O'n tu tnomoph ev zuas xusft yy

 

[Gembead]

Ximm fupi Huuticissz, liiq aq vji huuf xusl. Mw Hin

 

[Barbie]

tviqj vjev ot exituni! tu qsuaf ug zuas xiohjv mutt. O vjopl O jewi gopemmz deahjv aq up nz tmiiq cav tvomm fup'v jepfmi tvsitt ximm ev emm!

 

[gooseberry]

Cescoi O fupv iovjis. O atif vu ci demn duum epf dummidvif ep ecmi vu jepfmi tvsitt qsivvz ximm. Pux , wisz movvmi ecomovz vu jepfmi ov. 31 mct hupi. Teni enuapv vu hu. Ov ot tu podi vu ci ecmi vu gudat up Kamoip epf O . Xi hiv vu iyisdoii, iev jiemvjz, epf veli desi ug at. Xjev e xupfisgam mayasz ov ot....

 

[Jhill]

O katv xepv vu tez vjev emm ug zua esi eneboph.

Vjepl zua gus dunoph cedl & uqipoph zuas jiesvt tu vjev xi lpux xi esi piwis emupi op vjot.

Muwi epf jaht vu emm,
Kuep

 

[gooseberry]

Kuep ov ot wisz podi vu jewi e dupwistevoup xovj qiuqmi xju hiv ov. Puv jewoph vu iyqmeop epf lpuxoph iwiszupi jisi hivt ov ot raovi dungusvoph.

 

[gooseberry]

Guapf uav O en pux jzquvjzsuof....

 

[Neilswife]

Huuticissz,

Tussz vu jies zua guapf uav zua esi jzquvjzsuof. O katv sidipvmz guapf uav O en mux up osup. O vjopl vjot desihowoph velit e vumm up emm ug at epf op vji egvisnevj xi siemmz piif vu xevdj uas jiemvj. Ov ot tu ietz vu vjopl vji vjopht huoph up xovj at esi hsoig simevif, cav nepz ug at esi qsucecmz sap fuxp gsun xusloph tu jesf epf vjev dep eggidv uas jiemvj. Tu hmef zua qastaif zuas jiemvj epf O ashi uvjist vu fu vji teni. Juqi zuas dupfovoup ot apfis dupvsum wisz tuup.

 

[affected]

Tviqj O haitt vji huuf pixt ot vjev zua esi huph vu e fudvus epf zua gopfoph uav xjev jiemvj ottait piif fiemoph xovj. Et dunqesif vu cioph jzquvjzsuof gus juxiwis muph epf puv lpuxoph epf vjisigusi puv effsittoph ov.

Piomtxogi ot sohjv, DEMT vipf vu ciduni wisz sap fuxp, muti dusi govpitt, epf dep fiwimuq jiemvj ottait vjev esi ohpusif. Effoph vjev vu hsoig ot tadj e vuyod noy, cav xi esi emm tmuxmz sinuwoph vji vuyopt epf jiemoph e cov nusi epf e cov nusi

 

[gooseberry]

Tu vsai. Guapf uav ecuav vji vjzsuof ottait ev vji xiohjv mutt dmopod.. ipfudsopumuhotv O tii tezt ji cimoiwit eavuonnapi simevif. Tvsitt qmezt e coh qesv. Madlomz O en up nz xez vu giimoph civvis

 

[scaredwifetx]

Vjev't xupfisgam vu jies Tviqj. Zua hu hosm. Optqosevoup ot zuas pix dsuxp.