I think on occasions those feelings need a bit of cover until we can deal with them. If you feel better, you are doing the right thing. The end.
Seriously, what we have been through here is so freaking grotesque. That this is even going on in the 21st Century is stunning. I need to eat healthy etc. so I can have a 10% chance of seeing the bonafide beginning of the end of ALS.
Digging into a staff issue can be so much like that Japanese film from the 1970’s, Roshamon. It’s different from every point of view, way deeper than you thought and not what you expected. Glad it was educational, they often are.
Yesterday was quite productive. Got lots of cleaning done and my house feels so much better and fresher, was definitely a very busy day. It rained a bit here and there, so being inside getting this stuff done was just the ticket.
At one point, like 9:30 in the morning, I texted DD that I was kicking butt and taking names w/a list of what had been accomplished so far. She asked me what I took. I said coffee and she replied “that was some magical coffee” LOL
It felt so good to be taking back control.
I finally feel like I’m inching forward. Tomorrow could be totally different, and that’s ok, but I will take what I can get for this weekend
Later I’m supposed to get together with my DB. And tomorrow I take Willow to get spayed. Taking Tuesday off of work to care for her.
Been a busy week, but that’s ok. Went to see my girl yesterday and bring home some of her stuff. She has a final tomorrow and then off to see her DBF for a week. Then she will be home. She will have a clinical and then another in the spring and she will be done.
We had a few good convos yesterday and she is so very happy. I am thrilled for her.
Willow has her spit and vinegar back. She’s chewed more of my carpet. Really have to pick a flooring and get moving with that project, looks awful in my entry way.
I also have all my cleaning to do today since I was out yesterday.
Not sure this month is going to look much brighter. Brian’s BD is coming up on the 27th. Will be the first. I’d like to hibernate for the next few months. As that leads right to Nov and the first anniversary of his passing. Can’t believe that is only about 6 weeks away now. This just all s*cks.