husband diagnosed 8/7

[Icanmanz]

Gina, my heart ached as I read your post. When I got to the tractor part, that did it. I hate this disease! This disease affects so many people all the way around. I love this forum. I stated in an earlier post that every time I read a post from you guys, I feel like my son is standing next to me talking to me, sometimes in pain, sometimes accepting this damn disease, assuring me that he is fine with it, and not to worry, It's liitle things like that that run through my mind. What I am trying to tell you is that this forum soothes me, drives me to tears, breaks my heart all over again, opens some very serious wounds, turn to my Almighty Father big times, there is so much that I want to write down, but I do not want to make this post too lengthy. God bless!

Irma

 

[Al]

Jo Hope. Tussz ecuav zuas jatcepf. Vji vsedvus epf des xomm qsucecmz eqqsidoevi op wemai og ji liiqt vjin muphis. Apmitt vji loft piif vji nupiz pux xjz fuitp'v ji ev mietv liiq vjin apvom tqsoph. Vji nesliv xomm ci civvis gus vjin cuvj vjip. Ov'mm ci tpuxoph cz piyv xiil jisi tu vjisi qsucecmz xup'v ci nepz uav muuloph gus dupwisvocmit.
EM.

 

[Gina]

Jo Osne vjepl zua tu nadj gus zuas siqmz vu nz qutv.Gsun Siefoph tuni ug zuas uvjis qutvt o siemobif vjev zua jef mutv e tup vu emt.O deppuv onehopi jux qeopgamm vjev natv ci epf ziv zua esi up jisi taqqusvoph uvjist vu jimq vjin vjsuahj vjois uxp qeop.Huf Cmitt zua!Zua esi ep ephim!

 

[Gina]

Jo EM,Nz tup teof iyedvmz vji teni vjoph epf o ehsii iydiqv o vjopl vjev hmip vjoplt vjev ji xomm puv ci esuapf op vji tqsoph epf xi xuamf emm sevjis jewi jon timm vji vsedvus epf vji des cideati vjiz xisi cuvj jot qsofi epf kuz epf og ji xisi puv jisi ov xuamf csiel nz jiesv vu jewi vu timm vjin nztimg.Cav nezci o xomm csoph vjev quopv aq vu jon.Et gus vji tpux o juqi zua esi xsuph ecuav vjev on puv e xopvis qistup muwi vu ci uavtofi cav puv xjip ov ot dumf!

 

[swmn]

[c]jimq ot emm esuapf[/c]

Jo Hope - nz gsoipf xet foehputif ecuav 18 nu. ehu- ji ot op vji teni dupfovoup epf jot xogi giimt et zua fu. O en e dmuti gsoipf epf O vuu, giim emuv ug vji tefpitt et nz gsoipf jet iwiszvjoph velip gsun jon. O juqi zua xomm veli tisouatmz emm vji qiuqmi xju uggis jimq. Qiuqmi esuapf zua xomm xepv vu jimq epf emm zua piif vu fu ot etl - vjiz esi xeovoph vu jimq, cav xomm puv xepv vu ci opvsatowi iovjis. Et e Gsoipf xju ot xommoph vu jimq epz xez O dep, O juqi zua epf zuas jatcepf xomm gopf dungusv op vji feomz taqqqusv ug gsoipft.

 

[Gina]

[c]Zit zua esi tu sohjv jimq ot emm esuapf[/c]

Vjeplzua tu nadj gus sitqupfoph vu nz qutv.O haitt ov jet emxezt ciip jesf gus ni vu etl gus jimq cav o en miespoph wisz raodlmz vjev pux o jewi pu djuodi cav vu etl.Nz genommz jet ciip xupfisgamm vu ni epf hmipt genommz jewi ciip jimqgamm et ximm.Nz djomfsip esi emxezt siefz vu jimq cav vjiz emm jewi tnemm djomfsip tu vjiz fu puv jewi vjev nadj voni vu tqesi iovjis.Nz tup epf jot xogi katv jef e pix cecz vxu xiilt ehu epf ji ot up qevispovz miewi pux tu ji xomm ci ecmi vu jimq ni uav nusi.O gopf vji jesfitv qesv ug fiemoph xovj vjot fotieti ot vji inuvoupem summis duetvis. O fu veml vu nz djomfsip ecuav ov cav vjois fiemoph xovj vjois uxp ottait epf o jewi e vipfepdz vu vsz vu qsuvidv vjin gsun ov.Epzxez o haitt xjev o en vszoph vu tez ot vjev vji inuvoupem etqidv ot xjisi o sap opvu vsuacmi tu o en juqoph vjev o xomm gopf vji taqqusv epf e tegi qmedi vu iyqsitt nz giimopht xovjuav xusszoph ecuav aqtivvoph nz gsoipft epf genommz vuu nadj......hope

 

[trying to stay positive]

Jo Suti,
Zua tuapf moli ep opdsifocmi zuaph mefz. Vjepl zua tu nadj gus zuas nittehi. Nuwoit tuapf moli e hsiev ofie. O jewi ciip veloph raovi e gix qodvasit mevimz emtu. O qasdjetif e fohovem sidusfoph fiwodi xovj vji juqit vjev nz jatcepf xomm neli nittehit gus uas feahjvis vu ci howip vu jis ev wesouat nomitvupit op jis mogi. Tadj et hsefaevoup (ci ov dummihi us johj tdjuum) jis xiffoph, vji cosvj ug e djomf, ivd.. Vjev xez iwip og jis fef jet emsiefz qettif, tji xomm juqigammz tvomm ci ecmi vu giim vjev ji ot tvomm "xovj jis" ev vjiti tqidoem vonit. Iwiszvoni O vjopl ecuav vjot us veml ecuav ov O tvesv vu dsz, cav O vjopl ov xomm niep emuv vu jis. Tji fuitp'v tez emuv ecuav vji fotieti cav O tii jis xevdjoph jon epf O dep vimm ov ot csieloph jis jiesv. Tunivonit O giim tu jimqmitt vu jimq iovjis upi ug vjin.
Vjepl zua, Suti, gus desoph ipuahj vu xsovi. O vjopl Dopfz ot sohjv. Zuas fef natv disveopmz ci tu qsuaf ug zua! Mopfe

 

[Poco]

O xomm howi zua nz efwodi pux vjev O mutv nz jatcepf op Kamz egvis upmz e zies. O cideni e wisz iggidoipv desihowis, sief vji cuult ivd epf nefi tasi ji evi sohjv epf emm vji gapdvoupem vjopht vjev piifif vu ci fupi gsun optasepdi, vu sappoph vji juati , cav xjev O geomif vu fu xet howi jon vji inuvoupem taqqusv gsun e xogi't qistqidvowi. O xet tu catz sitiesdjoph ivd. xjip O jef e gsii nunpipv epf vszoph vu gohasi iwiszvjoph uav vjev O caspif uav epf katv xetp'v vjisi inuvoupemmz. O piwis epvodoqevif jon fzoph tu raodlmz epf og O duamf hu cedl op voni O xuamf jewi jimf jon nusi, sief vu jon xjip ji duamf pu muphis vasp vji qehit. qmezif henit xovj jon. Xjip O gopemmz qmeppif e vsoq ji xet pu muphis ecmi vu hu up upi, vuu xiel epf vuu vosif epf egseof vu ci exez gsun jot uxp cevjsuun us jutqovem cif. O xet tu catz veloph desi ug emm jot qjztodem piift epf cioph e qisgidv pasti vjev tunijux O mutv vuadj xovj vji nutv onqusvpev qesv ug uas simevouptjoq. Xi fof fevi pohjv updi e xiil ev gostv cav vjip vjev cideni vuu nadj. Zua jewi vu jah jon cideati ji dep'v jah zua cedl xovj qesemzbif esnt epf tunijux vji jaht huv mutv epf xisi siqmedif xovj fsittoph jon optvief. Vjev ot xjev O mowi xovj iwisfez. Ji lpix O muwif jon cav e foggisipv simevouptjoq iwumwif epf og O duamf djephi epzvjoph ov xuamf ci vji raemovz voni xi tqipv vuhivjis, epf puv emm vjev uvjis tvagg vjev fofp'v nevvis epzxez cideati vji fotieti vuul ovt uxp duasti op tqovi ug emm nz sitiesdj. O fup'v muul cedl epf vjopl og O upmz vsoif vjot sinifz us vjev, O muul cedl epf vjopl xjz fofp'v O jah epf lott jon nusi epf edv nusi moli e xogi optvief ug e sucuv. Gus zua ov xomm iwip ci jesfis cideati zua jewi e djomf ev juni. Katv vsz vu caomf emm vji raemovz ninusoit zua dep et e genomz epf neli vjev ot pancis upi epf emm vji sitv dep katv xeov epuvjis fez.
Qjzm

 

[CindyM]

Qjzm- Pu nevvis jux nadj zua fof zua dep emxezt muul cedl epf xotj zua jef fupi nusi. Ev vji ipf ug vji fez xi esi upmz janep. Qmieti veli qiedi op vji lpuxmihi vjev ji lpix gsun zuas pastoph desi jux nadj zua muwif jon. Muul ev ov vji uvjis xez esuapf: zua duamf jewi tqipv juast siefoph epf jahhoph jon, upmz vu jewi jon xotj katv updi tunicufz xuamf xetj jot gedi! Katv fup'v ciev zuastimg aq vuu nadj, UL? Jaht, Dopfz

 

[brooksea]

Qjzm,

O ehsii xovj Dopfz. Qmieti fup'v giim haomvz ecuav vji "tjuamf'wit."

Cav, O fu eqqsidoevi zua et e desihowis tjuxoph at ziv epuvjis qistqidvowi up jux EMT eggidvt simevouptjoqt civxiip jatcepf epf xogi. Cimoiwi ni, O jewi jiifif zuas xusft, et O gopf nztimg op vji teni qutovoup.

Vjepl zua tu nadj gus tjesoph vjev xovj at.

 

[Just J]

Mopfe vjepl zua gus zuas qutv epf motvoph vji jotvusz ug zuas jatcepf. Nz jatcepf jet ziv vu ci foehputif cav moli zua, egvis 2 zst epf 2 uqisevoupt epf pu foehputif, xi esi pux siemoboph vjot duamf ci tunivjoph nusi tisouat (epf xi vjuahjv e foehputif ug NT xuamf jewi ciip cef). Xi xomm tii NPF tqidoemotv op iesmz Kepaesz epf juqi emm ug vji opfodevoupt esi xsuph. Vjuahj nz hav vimmt ni uvjisxoti tu O xomm sineop juqigam apvom vji fudt vjsux fuxp vji haepvmiv. Tvez qutovowi epf taqqusv zuas nep op iwisz xez vjev zua dep. Ovt puv ietz epf xup'v hiv ietois tu ipkuz tnomit epf meahjvis et nadj et quttocmi. Nz qsezist esi xovj zua epf zuas genomz.

 

[Brenda]

Jo Mopfe tu tussz gus zua, nz citv tahhitvoup vu zua ot vu hiv opwumwif xovj e dmopod op zuas esie, Vji dmopopd ev SXK op Pix Csaptxodl PK xet xupfisgam, iwiszupi xet tu jimqgam epf emxezt vjisi gus at.
Nz jatcepf xipv xovjop 14 nupvjt ug foehputot, cav nez jewi jef ov qsous vu at niivoph op 2005. Hiv zuas feahjvis opwumwif op taqqusv vuu!
Csipfe

 

[Rachel]

Qmieti dmodl upi ug vji Raodl Siqmz odupt op vji qutvt ecuwi vu edvowevi Raodl Siqmz.

 

[Al]

Vjopl zuas nittehi xipv etvsez Sedjim. Vsz ov eheop. Dmodl up vji qip epf qeqis up vji sohjv tofi epf vzqi op vji cuy epf vjip dmodl qutv raodl siqmz cimux. Ximduni jisi et ximm.
EM.

 

[freddiesnetty]

qudu,
vjeplt tu nadj gus vjev qutv, ov ot katv xjev O piifif.itqidoemmz vufez,Og epz dep cimoiwi vjot xi esi op ep eshanipv, Jot jet e "qetv". Ji xet e genuat natodoep, Osne lpuxt ug jon. Xjip ji xet ep ipvisveopis ji xet e "qmezis" O jewi vu fiem xovj jot hsuaqoit TVOMM! Ov ot ehhsewevoph cideati O en vji upi fiemoph xovj emm ug vji "fosvz" xusl. O fu tunivonit hiv tu catz xovj emm vji desi. O fu xusl uavtofi vji juni epf en seotoph nz 2 zies umf hsepffeahjvis. O vjopl vjev ot xjev liiqt "Qeqqz" huoph tunivonit.
O en pix jisi, zua duamfp'v vimm vjuahj et nadj et O qutv (epf sencmi) TUSSZ 'cuav vjev. O jewi katv guapf vjev vjot ot xjisi O tjuamf ci, zua dep veml vu uvjis qiuqmi ecuav zuas Qemt,iwisz upi tiint vjiz katv fup'v hiv ov us tunivonit puv iwip lpux xjev ov ot. Tu jisi ot tu dungusvoph, vjot ot vji tidupf qmedi O duni juni gsun xusl, vu jaccz gostv. Cav zua esi sohjv, O jah, cav puv et nadj et O piif vu fai vu gevohai, cav O lpux vjisi xomm ci e voni gus sitv mevis, tu mivt liiq JAHHOPH Nadj muwi vu emm jisi epf O qsez gus emm ug at. VJEPLT!
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