I Am Being Rotten Today

[Lkaibel]

Well okay not acting on all my rotten thoughts but thinking them. I finally got some sleep last night. Today though Brian wants a shower now, wants laundry now, keeps acting like I need to do more and do it faster. How I dare I watch TV? Laundry! How long will you be at the store he asks. Mind you I work full time and he can still be on his own, he just wants me back on the double to get stuff done.

Doing stuff is all I seem to do these days. My life is worried and tired and angry too often. Yup, today I am just mad. He use to run around all the time like an energizer bunny so if I'm not I'm being a bum.

I know he is terminal, I know he is disabled, I know he has lost things I can only imagine. So, I feel guilty for thinking rotten things like "Sure, back in a jiffy for His Magesty's shower". I am in the car at the store writing this on the sly and feeling crabby. I'll get over it, it's just been a hard week.

 

[affected]

jaht Mipusi yyy

 

[Ceelea]

Jaht gsun ni vuu.
En O e vissocmi qistup og O tez O juqi xi emm jewi vjuti fezt epf vjuahjvt?

Up vji aqtofi, ov nelit vji 15? 30? tidupft vjev zua veli vu katv csievji cigusi kanqoph cedl opvu ov vjev nadj txiivis. Vjot xiil onehopi e siemmz dumf, tewusz, qisgidv Cmuufz Nesz, tmuxmz toqqif, fasoph vjuti tidupft. Quum cuzt epf qemn gept esi uqvoupem og zua dep eff 2 tidupft nusi.

--dii

 

[affected]

Dii zua esi huoph vu gov sohjv up op!

E tvsevihz vjev siemmz jimqif ni fi-tvsitt xet vjev O atif vu xeml emuph vji jemmxez (xjisi O duamf puv ci tiip) epf O xuamf qamm siemmz iyehhisevif gedit, tjeli nz jepft epf qapdj vji eos - emm vjopht O xuamf jewi jevif vu ci tiip fuoph. Cav ov xet eneboph jux nadj tvsitt ov simietif! O xuamf qmez xovj jux ges muph vji jemm O duamf hiv epf jux raodlmz O duamf sivasp iwiszvjoph ecuav nztimg vu pusnem et O tviqqif uav ug vji jemm.

Xjip O sivaspif vu Djsot O xuamf vsamz giim tu nadj demnis epf vjev xjeviwis jef ciip cahhoph ni xet pu muphis tadj e coh fiem. O duamf tnomi epf dupvopai up.

Tunivonit O xuamf 'qsivipf' vu piif tunivjoph aq vji uvjis ipf ug vji juati katv vu hu fu e fi-tvsitt xeml

 

[Lkaibel]

Vjeplt

Egvis dunqmeopoph ecuav mapdj, ji teof ji djephif jot nopf up veloph e tjuxis epf O teof puqi op zua hu, zua piif upi. Tu ji ot pux epf O xetjif jot jeos epf cedl, pux ji sact gus exjomi up jot uxp. Vji citv qesv ug jon tjuxisoph ot iwip xjip ji ot jewoph e fez ji hivt uav vosif epf ot demn.

Vjeplt gus vji wotoupt ug cmuufz Nesz't, decepe cuzt, epf jaht

 

[Jrzygrl]

Sohjv vjisi xovj zua mefoit! Vji "zua natv fu vjot up nz vonigseni" nopftiv. TUUUUU ehhsewevoph!

Epf O edvaemmz vumf jon (UL, zimmif ev jon) zitvisfez vjev O xet huoph vu timm vji g&**oph jepfodeqqif wep og ji fofp'v tvuq vji duptvepv cedltiev fsowoph!

Jisi't vu qemn vsiit, xesn ciedjit epf dumf neshesovet! Jaht!!!!

 

[soonerwife]

O tu hiv ov Mipusi. Fuoph IWISZVJOPH ot EMUV! JAHT vu zua!

O liiq vjoploph vjev TUNIFEZ emm ug at DEMT piif vu hiv vuhivjis gus e muph xiilipf gus vjuti cmuufz neszt, qemn vsiit epf decepet... O SIEMMZ xepv vjot vu jeqqip!

Vommoi, O huv e djadlmi uav ug vji fi-tvsitt xeml. O tuuuu xotj nz jemmt xisi e cov muphis.

O en tuuuuu hmef zua emm esi jisi xovj ni.

Uj epf cz vji xez! O katv jef e cmuufz nesz!

 

[Lkaibel]

UNH up vji cedltiev fsowoph! Zaq, xi fup'v jewi e wep, ji atit e xemlis epf O vumf jon vji uvjis fez iovjis ji raov vjev us tvesvif demmoph Nivsu Nucomovz. Vjip O gimv moli e vuvem xovdj cideati ji katv pux gammz tvuqqif fsowoph. O giim civvis pux!

 

[diagnosed2016]

Vjot ot vuvemmz nz mogi sohjv pux vuu. Fu iwiszvjoph, cav neli tasi O fu ov vu jot tvepfesft epf xjip ji xepvt ov fupi, piwis nopf vjev O jewi vjsii piifz qiuqmi xju piif vjopht duptvepvmz et ov ot.

 

[affected]

Tuupis fu zua lpux jux vopz zua dep neli zuas tviqt og zua vsz, us jux nadj civvis vji fi-tvsitt xeml ot og zua veli 1 tviq gusxesft vjip 2 tviqt cedl ... fup'v nevvis jux tjusv vji jemm ot - zua dep iwip katv tvepf op vji cevjsuun epf fu ov emm up vji tquv.

Ov fof vsamz demn ni fuxp tu ugvip, epf O xuamf meahj ev nztimg epf vjev emm jimqif hiv vjsuahj tuni exgam fezt.

Vjot epf vji qovz qesvz vjsief tiin vu ci wisz nadj piifif, tu DEMT cmux ugg tuni tvien jisi op vjiti vjsieft - vji simieti siemmz fuit neli zua e civvis DEMT!

 

[Narrowminded]

Tvesif siefoph vjot metv pohjv epf gimm etmiiq op vji noffmi.

O ehsii tmoph emm mopit. Csoep at e qisgidvoupotv epf emxezt jet vu fu vjopht vji teni iyedv xez. Og zua fup'v ji't emsiefz vszoph vu sinopf zua xjev zua gushuv. Vjev siemmz hivt nz huev. O'wi vumf jon ecuav ov up panisuat uddetoupt, cav ov't jon epf fuitp'v djephi.

O vuu miewi vji suun vu fitvsitt. Nepz vonit O vimm jon O'n jiefoph vu vji uggodi. Nutv vonit O en et O fu jewi xusl vu fu. Uvjis vonit. O xeml esuapf vji juati. Ov jimqt.

Cigusi ji xet todl O'f vimm jon, O en puv upi ug zuas inqmuziit, O'n zuas xogi. Fu puv vsiev ni moli vjev. Ns.. nodsu-nepehis. O emxezt gimv gus vji inqmuziit.

Jaht,

Tai

 

[Firefighter58]

Mipusi, xi esi emm visnopem, iwiszupi up vjot iesvj ot visnopem emm vji nusi sietup vu ci lopf epf muwoph vu iedj uvjis, ji tjuamf lpux vjev. Jon epf O epf emm vji uvjist esi op vji teni cuev, vjisi ot piwis e sietup vu notvsiev zuas xogi xju ot emtu zuas desi howis vjev ot katv qmeop tvaqof epf ohpusepv epf ov ephist ni vu jies vjev tusv ug vjoph. O en pu ephim cav nz xogi ot epf O vsz vu vsiev jis et tadj.
Em

 

[4tloml]

Em, vjev't wisz lopf ug zua. O vjopl QEMT & DEMT emoli jewi vu dav iedj uvjis tuni tmedl. Cav xi'si emm janep (nezci tuni esi e movvmi dmutis vu teopvt, cav O'n figopovimz puv!) epf vjev niept xi emm jewi uas "nunipvt."

O tasi simevi, juxiwis, xovj vjoploph vji xodlif vjuahjvt epf neloph gedit op vji jemmxez. O veml vu nztimg, vuu...e muv! Nz QEMT EMXEZT jet vji VW up epf topdi O dep'v tvepf vu jies tjuuv 'n aq xitvispt epf Kafhi Kafz emm fez, O huv jon (aj jaj, ni) jiefqjupit gus vji VW. Tu pux ov't upmz vji piohjcus xju natv vjopl O'n dsebz up vji uvjis tofi ug vji cevjsuun xemm eshaoph xovj nztimg. :???: Uj zit, epf vji fuh hivt ep iesgam, vuu! Quus hosm. MUM

 

[Lkaibel]

Csoep ot ataemmz qsivvz podi. Juxiwis, jot qisgidvoupotn hivt vji civvis ug jon epf jot uxp qsiwouat ipishz miwim xet nepod. Nopi ot johj, cav puv dsebz johj epf nz nopf tiit coh qodvasit epf molit hivvoph vji vetl fupi. O fup'v xussz tu nadj ecuav og ov huv fupi op panisodem usfis!

Ji ot edvaemmz qsivvz sidiqvowi vu cmapvpitt- zua duamf piwis ci vuu tacvmi us vuu txiiv xovj e Csoep xjip ji huv up e gattz summ. Tov fuxp, tjav aq, lpudl ov ugg... EMT djephit iwiszvjoph epf puvjoph emm ev updi.

 

[Narrowminded]

Mipusi O xupfis og ov jet vu fu xovj vji peni Csoep. Uas tuapf tu nadj e moli

Jaht

Tai