dianan
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Not sure if this is the correct place for this thread. My mom has been gone for almost three months now. I've been so emotional these past three months. I get so angry so easily and I get hurt or upset and cry so easily. I started a job just after my mom passed. I didn't want anyone to know about my mom cuz I didn't want to be reminded or treated differently. It's been hard to keep everything to myself. When I see customers with their mom and people talking about doing crafts with their mom, I get so sad and wish I could do those things with my mom. Today a customer was very angry and told me she was never shopping here again. My managers witnessed the whole thing. The woman was clearly troubled and angry, but the way she acted caused me to lose it. I cried. Luckily my shift was over. I went home and cried for hours. I just want to curl up and go to sleep and never wake up. I want this to be a dream. I want to wake up and find that I've been living in a nightmare that's over and my mom is alive and well. I'm tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of being emotionally unstable. I'm tired of being sad about other people still having their mother when I don't have mine. She was only 57 when she died and didn't have a wrinkle on her face. I'm so angry that she was robbed of her life. She will never see her great-grandchildren. This is my first Christmas without her and I don't even want to celebrate.