Thank you Al for your reply,
Al you would not believe the year that we have had or the last couple of years. My girlfriend died one year ago of lung cancer, my father died, then my cousing who was only forty six died of a heart attack a couple of months ago. The last few years have been filled with alot of loss and grief including the death of my friend's son in a car crash. It has been one loss after another. I was very ill in the last few years and about nine months ago was starting to stabilize with my illness and then my husband became ill. As my father was dying of cancer my husband comforted me through the rough months, little did we know my husband was so ill also. Due to the stress and fear my illness has raised it's ugly head again so we are now battling with two diseases. I try hard to keep strong for my husband and myself and son. I looked up at the stars last night and said out loud, why? why? I do not understand why? My husband and I just a few years ago purchased our dream home. Now I look around at this beautiful home and all the dreams we had and again ask why? The home even though beautiful is no longer important to me, my best friend is all that matters. I will look up at the stars tonight and make a wish, something I have been doing since I was a little girl. My wishes when I was a little girl changed every night, I would wish for something different all the time. I find myself saying god I wish I wish a little girl again, when all I had to worry about was what kind of bubble gum I would like. My wish now is the same every night. I wish that the love of my life is cured. Again Al thank you for all you do for all of us. Keep us laughing, we need it.
Sandy.