majinlauren
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Hi everyone! I'm new to this forum, but after a troubling few weeks I felt like I needed to post to kind of get it all out there. I have read both stickies and I hope this post is within the guidelines as I am waiting for my neurology appointment after being referred for unexplained twitching and muscle weakness in my right arm (and other parts as well).
So I'm 22F and when I was young I watched my grandmother pass of ALS. It was horrible, as I'm sure you all know, but she was kind and graceful and fun all the way until the end and I admire her strength immensely. I dont think anyone ever attributed it to a familial thing because she had 5 siblings, 2 kids, and 3 grandkids and I'm the only one who has ever had any issue close to this.
Fast forward and I begin having some finger twitches in the right middle finger that last longer and longer and some muscle pain which I can only describe as burning and nerve-y, weakness, and crampy discomfort in my legs and arms, especially my right arm. Obviously bc of my childhood experience and the first thing on my mind was ALS, but I tried to push it away from my mind and I made an appointment with my nurse practitioner that worked for the same office as my PCP, who is OOO.
She believed I had carpal tunnel and my other body cramps were unrelated. I thanked her and made an appointment with a orthopedic hand doctor for confirmation.
So I just got back from the doctor today and honestly I'm so distraught. He took my patient history, examined me, tested my reflexes and finger strength and he determined that I "definitely do not have carpal tunnel" and that he isn't quite sure what's going on but it might be neurological because I had significant weakness in my right hand (bad arm). That's when I started to sweat a little and I told him "hey, I'm not sure how relevant this is but my grandmother did die of ALS." And he immediately was like well we need to get you an EMG (?) and a refferal to a neurologist. I said, "but she had several siblings blah blah blah" and he said "well a family history is still family history" and said it was nice to meet me and walked away.
I sat there shocked like I couldn't even cry and I could hear them saying OVER AND OVER again outside of the patient room that "Yep. Family history of ALS."
A nurse came in and I had finally broken down and he comforted me and said that he also had a grandparent who had ALS and that he gets worried alot too. I was trying to push the idea of ALS so far back in my mind because #1 I'm under 25 and #2 I don't have significant family history. They didn't seem to take this into account at all or maybe they just know something I don't about Familial ALS?
I'm sitting here now, muscles twitching everywhere, thinking of how weak my hand was to the point where it hurts to pick up a fork. I'm extremely scared and I'm looking for guidance on how to remain calm until I actually get the diagnostic tests run which could be a month or longer. The thought of having ALS has consumed my every waking moment since and I feel like I'm losing it and I don't want to be a burden to my family.
My BF and mom are adamant that it is not ALS for the two reasons I thought it wasn't, but now I'm starting to doubt... I just need help being more rational about it I think.
So I'm 22F and when I was young I watched my grandmother pass of ALS. It was horrible, as I'm sure you all know, but she was kind and graceful and fun all the way until the end and I admire her strength immensely. I dont think anyone ever attributed it to a familial thing because she had 5 siblings, 2 kids, and 3 grandkids and I'm the only one who has ever had any issue close to this.
Fast forward and I begin having some finger twitches in the right middle finger that last longer and longer and some muscle pain which I can only describe as burning and nerve-y, weakness, and crampy discomfort in my legs and arms, especially my right arm. Obviously bc of my childhood experience and the first thing on my mind was ALS, but I tried to push it away from my mind and I made an appointment with my nurse practitioner that worked for the same office as my PCP, who is OOO.
She believed I had carpal tunnel and my other body cramps were unrelated. I thanked her and made an appointment with a orthopedic hand doctor for confirmation.
So I just got back from the doctor today and honestly I'm so distraught. He took my patient history, examined me, tested my reflexes and finger strength and he determined that I "definitely do not have carpal tunnel" and that he isn't quite sure what's going on but it might be neurological because I had significant weakness in my right hand (bad arm). That's when I started to sweat a little and I told him "hey, I'm not sure how relevant this is but my grandmother did die of ALS." And he immediately was like well we need to get you an EMG (?) and a refferal to a neurologist. I said, "but she had several siblings blah blah blah" and he said "well a family history is still family history" and said it was nice to meet me and walked away.
I sat there shocked like I couldn't even cry and I could hear them saying OVER AND OVER again outside of the patient room that "Yep. Family history of ALS."
A nurse came in and I had finally broken down and he comforted me and said that he also had a grandparent who had ALS and that he gets worried alot too. I was trying to push the idea of ALS so far back in my mind because #1 I'm under 25 and #2 I don't have significant family history. They didn't seem to take this into account at all or maybe they just know something I don't about Familial ALS?
I'm sitting here now, muscles twitching everywhere, thinking of how weak my hand was to the point where it hurts to pick up a fork. I'm extremely scared and I'm looking for guidance on how to remain calm until I actually get the diagnostic tests run which could be a month or longer. The thought of having ALS has consumed my every waking moment since and I feel like I'm losing it and I don't want to be a burden to my family.
My BF and mom are adamant that it is not ALS for the two reasons I thought it wasn't, but now I'm starting to doubt... I just need help being more rational about it I think.