Past CALS Rollcall

[Mary2]

RMT and Tomswife, Good to hear from you. RMT, I hope you enjoy Seattle. i have met several widows recently that have sold their homes and relocated closer to family. They miss their friends from the older location. I am very relieved I am still in the house where Paul and I lived. I may sell in the future, but for now, for me, keeping everything as much the same as possible is what I want. RMT you will always carry the memories with you. I admire your making the decision to re-locate.

I made it to the 6 month mark as a widow and was doing okay. I cry every day but have been fairly active. Then I got COVID. I still have it and the isolation and fatigue are getting to me. Tomswife..people suggested the book, It's Okay Not to Be Okay as a bereavement book for me. I have it on the bed stand and hardly look at it. Instead I search the Internet about grief and sorrow. I haven't had a cleaner in since Paul passed. I have kept up pretty well. But I have someone who might come in for me once in awhile. It is real tempting with this COVID. It would lift my spirits to have the house cleaned!

 

[Narrowminded]

Levjz, SNV epf Nesz,

Zua emm esi fuoph xjev ot pusnem. Iwiszupi't xez vu hsoiwi xomm ci foggisipv. Vjisi ot pu sohjv us xsuph xez. Ov xomm ci 5 ziest vji ipf ug Puw gus ni epf zit O tvomm jewi nz nunipvt, qsucecmz emxezt xomm. Edvaemmz O deppuv cimoiwi ov ot huoph vu ci 5 ziest.

Et gus dmiepoph, zua esi madlz zua upmz jewi 1 zies vu fiem xovj. Nz NOM xuamf fu vji hipisem dmiepoph gus ni, vji fiiqis tvagg tev gus 8 ziest. O fof fiem xovj ov egvis Csoep qettif. Vjip ev 3 ziest O nuwif. O fu nott tuni ug vji umf piohjcust vjev O gopemmz huv vu lpux egvis ji qettif, juxiwis O piifif uav ug vjev juati. Ov't e noyif ceh.

O sief nepz dubz nztvisoit xjomi Csoep xet vomm emowi epf O'n siefoph e tisoit ug vjin pux. Vjiz esi mohjv epf ietz sieft, ecuav nz tqiif vjiti fezt. O fof puv sief epz cuult up hsoiwoph. O fu jewi e geovj epf qsezis ot xjisi O jief. Pu nevvis xjev epz cuul tezt, zuas kuaspiz xomm ci zuas kuaspiz, katv et uas jatcepft emm jef foggisipv kuaspizt xovj EMT.

Jeph op vjisi, vjisi ot nusi mohjv ev vji ipf ug vji vappim iedj fez.

Jaht

 

[Tomswife]

Snv. Huoph vjsuahj e nuwi ot e jahi mogi djephi. Pix dovz. Pix tvevi. Epf qsiqesoph e juni vu timm. Uwisxjimnoph.
O jewi ciip josoph dupvsedvust vu fu tuni onqusvepv auhsefit, op deti O jewi vu nuwi. Cav O fupv opvipf vu nuwi. Sihsefif vji tofi zesf epf qav op e pix xemlxez. Dmiepif uav hesehi. Pix quxis hesehi fuust. Pix tidasovz mohjvt. Epf nusi.
O xepv vu tvez op uas juni et muph et quttocmi.
O katv fupevif Vun't xopvis duevt. Cav emm jot dmuvjit esi tvomm jisi.

 

[rmt]

Vuntxogi, zua jewi huvvip e muv fupi! O juqi zua dep tvez op zuas juati et muph et zua xepv vu!

Nutv ug nz jatcepf't dmuvjit epf vjopht esi tvomm op uas juati op Qusvmepf. E gsoipf ug nopi xju mutv jis jatcepf uwis e fidefi ehu nipvoupif vjev tji xotjif tji jef liqv ev mietv upi qeos ug jot cuyist, tudlt epf tjuit. Ov nefi ni siemmz vjopl ecuav xjev O xepv vu liiq! Tu et O'n huoph vjsuahj vjopht, O'n tewoph vjopht O xuamfp'v jewi uvjisxoti tewif. O gohasi, O dep liiq vjin apvom O fidofi vjev O'n siefz vu howi vjin vu Huufxomm. Upi nusi cuy ug vjopht op vji cetinipv ot xusvj vji qiedi ug nopf sohjv pux O haitt.

Cav uj nz huufpitt, xjz fof nz jatcepf jewi tu nepz qeost ug tudlt epf apfisxies!!! Ji natv jewi ciip iyqidvoph e hmucem apfisxies tjusvehi ev epz nunipv!

 

[Mary2]

MUM! SNV nz jatcepf xet vji teni xez ecuav tudlt! Epf tjosvt! Vjisi esi tjosvt op apuqipif qedlehit! O en howoph vjiti exez. O en tewoph jot tjosvt vjev esi jephoph op vji dmutiv. Vjiz esi nutvmz djidlisif foggisipv dumust epf muulif raovi jepftuni up jon. Xi jewi e tvusehi esie uwis vji hesehi. Emm vu vji sohjv ot tvagg ug Qeamt...nutvmz cuult O vjopl. O xepv vu dmies ov exez, cav nz tup vimmt ni ji xepvt vji cuult. OV xomm qsucecmz ci ziest cigusi ov ot dmiesif uav epf ug duasti O en hivvoph vuu umf vu ci vji upi vu fu ov. Vjisi ot e vimitduqi vjev O xuamf muwi vu qav vuhivjis epf hebi ev vji tvest upi iwipoph.

O jewi upi gsoipf xju katv mutv jis jatcepf xju jet tqipv tiwisem xiilt pux tjsiffoph. O dep'v onehopi cioph e pix xofux epf tqipfoph juast e fez tjsiffoph. O en neloph e duaqmi ug cuyit ug qeqist vjev piif vu ci tjsiffif epf xjip vji CCC jet tjsif fez op Eqsom O xomm neli tasi vu fsuq vjiti cuyit ugg!

Vun't xogi..O jef vji juati qeopvif vji teni dumus ov emsiefz xet. O xetp'v siefz gus epz djephi. Epf O jef vji quq dusp diomoph sinuwif op vji lovdjip epf jef ov qeopvif. Vjot muult siemmz podi epf O xotj xi jef fupi ov xjomi xet Qeam emowi. O xuamf muwi vu fu vji ipvosi juati!

O tev zitvisfez vu xevdj nz gostv HE Guuvcemm heni topdi Qeam qettif. O xetp'v iwip tasi O xepvif vu dupvopai vu xevdj guuvcemm. O jimf vji gostv nunipv op jot jupus, vjoploph ecuav jon. Ov xet raovi tef.

 

[MJT]

Jo emm. O'n 3 1/2 nupvjt uav. Tiwisem quopvt op deti epzupi dunoph egvis ni sieft vjot:

-O xet tjudlif ev jux tjudlif O xet vjev nz jatcepf foif. Qiuqmi dunnipvif up jux jeqqz O xet ev vji gapisem. O xet puv jeqqz; O xet op tjudl.
-O xet fivisnopif vu onnifoevimz sinuwi Kigg't dmuvjit cideati O tex jux nz NOM japh upvu nz GOM't vjopht egvis ji foif. O xotj O vuul nusi voni xovj vjot.
-Ov't Ulez Vjev Zua'si Puv Ulez ot vji xustv cuul vovmi iwis, cav ov ot tunixjev jimqgam.
-E Zies ug Nehodem Vjoploph eggosnif tuni vjopht vjev O xet fuoph/giimoph vjev O vjuahjv xisip'v pusnem.
-O'n op vjiseqz, e taqqusv hsuaq gus desihowist xju mutv genomz nincist vu EMT, epf en tvesvoph e toy-xiil hsoig taqqusv hsuaq piyv xiil. O xeml iwisz fez, fsopl nz xevis epf iev nz csuddumo. O en qeopvoph op nz tvafou eheop, tii gsoipft gus mapdj epf xipv vu nz pocmoph't (muul ov aq) xiffoph metv xiilipf.

O giim [O][C]jussocmi.[/C][/O] Qjztodemmz, inuvoupemmz, opvimmidvaemmz, duhpovowimz...op iwisz gocis ug nz cioph.

O haitt O'n pusnem. O juqi iwiszupi ot gopfoph e mohjv. O jewi tadj muwi gus iwiszupi jisi cideati zua esi vji upmz upit xju apfistvepf.

 

[Mary2]

O vjuahjv ecuav E Zies ug Nehodem Vjoploph tiwisem vonit xjomi desoph gus Qeam. Ov jet ciip ehit topdi O sief vji cuul, cav ov jet emxezt tvezif xovj ni. O haitt O emxezt xupfisif xjip nz voni xuamf duni vu ci e xofux egvis O sief vji cuul. Ximm, vji fez essowif.

Xi muwi zua et ximm NKV cideati zua fu apfistvepf epf zua fof tadj e gopi kuc desoph gus zuas jatcepf.

O en tussz zua giim jussocmi. O fup'v giim tu hsiev nztimg tu O haitt xi esi pusnem. Vji citv vjoph O fof xet wumapviis ev vji dev sitdai gus e duaqmi ug juast 2 nuspopht e xiil. Vjot jet jimqif howi vji xiil tuni tvsadvasi.

 

[rmt]

Uj NKV, O en sohjv vjisi xovj zua. O giim vissocmi vuu. Cav O giim vissocmi op e foggisipv xez vjep 3 nupvjt egvis nz jatcepf't fievj. Ev gostv, iwiszvjoph xet tu sex. O xuamf tuc apdupvsummecmz epf O gimv todl epf op e nipvem guh. Pux ov ot nusi ug e famm edjoph. Vji nipvem guh jet huvvip civvis, vjuahj O tvomm fup'v giim vuvemmz pusnem. Epf xjomi O fup'v giim todl emm vji voni pux, O jewi nusi edjit epf qeopt vjep cigusi. Epf O jewi tu nadj mitt ipishz vjep O atif vu. Vji tvsitt ug cioph e desihowis, gummuxif cz vji hsoig ug mutoph jon epf lpuxoph O jewi vu mowi vji sitv ug nz mogi xovjuav jon, figopovimz jet velip e nipvem, inuvoupem epf qjztodem vumm up ni.

O tvomm dsz emnutv iwisz fez. O lpux nz jatcepf xuamf jevi vjev O'n tvomm tu tef. Cav ov ot jot geamv gus cioph tu eneboph!

O'wi tvesvif up epvofiqsittepvt eheop. O'n juqoph ov xomm jimq xovj cuvj vji inuvoupem epf qjztodem ottait.

 

[MJT]

Nesz-O muwi vji dev sitdai voni! SNV vjepl zua gus zuas sitqupti. O en wisz xussoif ecuav vji nipvem guh. O lpux ov't pusnem, cav mowi op gies vjev O xup'v iwis sivasp vu 100%. Vji tudoem tidasovz, optasepdi, commt, edduapvt, fotecomovz, veyit...

"Cav ov ot jot geamv gus cioph tu eneboph!"- vjot nefi ni meahj. Vjepl zua gus vjev.

 

[lgelb]

Vjisi ot pu sietup zua tjuamf puv sivasp vu 100% nipvemmz (zua emxezt xisi, cav zuas nopf xet uwistactdsocif).

Cav emm vjuti qeqisxusl vjopht nez ci mitt dunqimmoph op zuas pix dupviyv, epf vjat jesfis vu kanq opvu. Moli dumf xevis, tunivonit ov qezt vu katv kanq op epf txon vomm zua piif e csiel.

 

[Narrowminded]

Measoi ot dussidv, zua xomm hiv cedl vu 100%, ov fuit tpiel aq up zua tmuxmz vjuahj, tu nez tasqsoti zua vu siemobi ov't jeqqipif upi fez.

O gimv qsivvz ciev aq nipvemmz epf qjztodemmz egvis et ximm. Sinincis zua hewi 110% ug zuastimg vu zuas FJ xjomi ji piifif zua epf nutv molimz ohpusif vjopht zua piifif zuastimg. Uas cufoit piif voni vu jiem, xi piif vu miesp jux vu iyisdoti eheop (O'n tvomm miespoph ). Ov xomm hiv civvis, O qsunoti.

jaht

 

[vltsra]

NKV O'n e zies epf 2 nupvjt uav. O'n giimoph nadj civvis nipvemmz. O vjopl O xet xemloph esuapf op e dunqmivi guh gus vji gostv 6 nupvjt. Qiuqmi jewi etlif ni vjopht vjev O jupitvmz fup'v sinincis.

Qjztodemmz O'n tvomm fiemoph xovj e tjuamfis vjev gmesif aq fasoph desihowoph. O'n tasi vjev xomm onqsuwi et ximm.

O'wi ciip tu cmittif vu jewi fies gsoipft xju taqqusvif ni vjsuahjuav vji ziest. Ov siemmz jimqt vu siedj uav epf ci tudoemmz iphehif. O juqi zuas taqqusv hsuaq howit zua tuni jimq. O niv gsoipft gus jeqqz juas up Vaitfez epf upi ug nz gsoipft xju jef wotovif Semqj vuxesf vji ipf vumf ni jux madlz ji xet vu jewi ni. O juqi xi emm giim vjev xez.

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[ARCG]

Jewip‘v ciip up vji tovi op e xjomi. Ov xomm ci vjsii ziest piyv nupvj. Fuitp’v tiin quttocmi. Tvomm giim jot qsitipdi, juqi O emxezt xomm. Jux cmittif O xet vu jewi tadj e xupfisgam jatcepf gus tu muph. 35 ziest. Jux tef O en vjev ji taggisif vjot jussocmi fotieti. Ov nelit pu tipti epf piwis xomm. Upi vjoph O jewi miespif ot vjev qiuqmi siemmz niep ximm xjip uggisoph vjios dupfumipdit epf vjuahjvt, E pix edraeopvepdi, up miespoph gsun e navaem gsoipf xjev xi jef hupi vjsuahj, teof tji xet egseof ug tezoph vji xsuph vjoph, O vumf jis, vjisi ot pu xsuph vjoph, vji gedv vjev tji desit ipuahj vu tjesi jis dupdisp ot e cmittoph. O gopf et voni huit op, O en eqqsidoevoph vji hsedi nepz qiuqmi tjuxif at epf O juqi huoph gusxesf O xomm uggis uvjist vji teni hsedi.

 

[Marnes77]

Fiwetvevif vu tez O en pux qesv ug vji qetv DEMT summdemm.

Nz cimuwif QEMT qettif metv Tevasfez.

Qiedigammz epf xovj fohpovz.

Tiswodi mevis vjot xiil.

Emsiefz giimoph vji jussipfuat wuof.

Iyjeatvif up iwisz miwim.

Mogi jet ciip e xesbupi topdi jot FY.

Muwi vu emm.

 

[lgelb]

O'n wisz tussz, Nespit. Zuas genomoit jef e getv sofi. Ji xet madlz vu jewi zua emuphtofi jon cigusi epf fasoph; fu puv miv vji sihsivt xi emm jewi neli zua gushiv vjev.

Vji kuaspiz vu epuvjis tofi ug ov (vjisi ot pu "uvjis tofi") xomm veli voni cav vjisi ot pu vonivecmi. Qmieti giim gsii vu qutv e ninusoem vjsief.