Thanks for your message Dianne. Yes, grief can be very lonely. When my father died three years ago, I remember being quite convinced that when my mum went I would be so lonely and alone. It is true that I am alone for they really are the last of my close family (no brothers or sisters or family of my own) but I don't feel that loneliness that I feared. God's gift I suppose that though I feel the pain of grief I also have sense of my mother around and about. I didn't have that so much with my father. I think I am doing reasonably well in that I am functioning well at work and am able to be present there, with my mind fully on it. But, when I come home and have time, well that's when I think so much of her and all that we've lived, that's when I cry the most. I know it's necessary. I could happily pass days staring out the window when I'm like that. However, I remember how she was when dad died and the kind of goals she set herself and find that I have something of her in me.