V, after so long, you must be so worn out. Sending hugs to you.
Mary, I'm sorry the wedding is becoming such a stressful challenge. I hope you can find a way to make things work for you.
Things are actually going pretty well for us right now (I really hope saying that doesn't jinx us!). We both increased the antidepressant dosage and it is helping a lot. I feel so much more in control of my emotions. And my husband is happier and more engaged. The entire feeling in the house is better.
We also figured out a dosage of gabapentin that helps his restless legs at night. For the first time in a year and a half, he is able to go to sleep and stay asleep all night (except bathroom trips). It is such a positive change in our quality of life. I'm hoping the gabapentin will keep working for him.
Life is so different than it used to be, but it feels sustainable again. I hope this feeling continues for a long time.