stupid, stupid,stupid

Another quiet sunday morning, alone with my thoughts. Huummm I have to find a way to put this, I don't want to offend anyone or lump everyone in a category. I am stupid, disillusioned, hurt and mad but most of all stupid. I find myself thinking I let myself be sucked into thinking that someone who befriended me was nice. Instead it was someone with an agenda. A complete dr. jekyll/mr. hyde a pretender and wannabe. Even seems to have an entourage and a groupie. I know there are a lot of people like that and I pray there are more in the world who are not. I try to live by 'do unto others as you would want done to you'. I also believe in what goes around comes around, I may not be there to see it but I believe it is true. I am so sorry so many were hurt by a few who think its fun to bully. Maybe it helps them feel better about themselves. Maybe it is something lacking in the way they were brought up. Who knows, but it is sad. How meaningless their lives must be. No I don't have als, but I do have a disease robbing me of strength, muscles and nerves and I post here trying to help others. I help others all the time. I hold doors open for those who are struggling more than I am, like moms trying to corral a toddler and push a stroller through a door. I donate to all sorts of charities. I try to turn the other cheek when insulted or looked down upon but at the moment I feel both cheeks have been slapped enough. I guess I am trying to justify that it is ok to be nice. I am trying not to be leery of new people who post here. I am trying to feel love and not hate. I am trying to feel better. I have always had a hard time understanding people who think themselves better than someone else, or smarter or prettier. I have a hard time understanding prejudice. I am stupid but not dumb. Fool me once shame on you but fool me twice shame on me. I guess I will be on guard, which makes me very sad. I hope no one has been offended, that is not my intent. I just wanted to get this off my chest and feel better.