Christmas shopping

Well, Mark, you would not be impressed!!! I am not doing so well with the christmas shopping. You aint gonna like it but I have scaled down a bit. Sorry my love xxx I got out last years diary with the present list in - why on earth were we buying for so many??? You were overly generous, infact, you were nuts!!! This year, its all about family, dont you worry, Jess and Alex will do mighty fine - Infact, I may have spoilt them more than usual, but I know that will make you smile xx But all those people we were buying for? umm, I know its not about receiving but, my lovely, we were giving too much, its ok, I know you loved to buy for everyone in the world, but this year its a little different. I love you Mark, wish you were here. Jess has done you proud with the house decorations, we are looking good to the outside world, mantle piece is perfect, tree is amazing. Inside our hearts, well, we are a little tatty and frayed. Nige is taking me grocery shopping tomorrow yuk!!!! Spiced cranberry? what do you think - yeah I know - no brainer innit!!!!!!!! Miss you. Guide me please xxxxxxxxxxxx