<3 3 Months <3 ~ 'Missing You Like Crazy, Babe.' <3

Three months ago today you took your last breath, we kissed for the very last time, I held you in my arms for the last time, .. my world ended. I miss you soo incredibly much. Today has been soo hard. They say 'with time, it will get easier', but right now that seems soo much like a lie. For me it seems to be worse. At the funeral I was in such a dazed surreal place... now I am soo more aware of my new reality.. that I will never wake up from this nightmare. Moments like William being successful at potty-training, Katie taking her first 4 steps.. are bittersweet now, not being able to share them with you. William's little antics, or Katie's personality.. how I want to share everything with you, and you are not here to share it with. I miss you soo incredibly much and have been in tears all day. I don't know how I am suppose to do this without you, but I know I am suppose to somehow find a way. Everyone one is expecting it, our kids depend on it, and I know you want me to go on.... yet, my heart feels, like I just want to lay down beside you. You are my world. With you, I had dreams, goals, a future.. someone to share it with... now, this world seems so empty without you.. and I am lossed without you. I miss you soo incredibly much Babe.