Tuesday

I looked in the mirror today and my goodness I have been crying for days now and it shows in great big bags under my eyes... I don't think I have any cucumber in the house... lol! and i have no idea what works for bags. Red eye I can fix but not this... I might have to post this dilemma on the boards and see what Zaphoon has up his sleeve for this.. :) CRYING Bags under the Eyes.... I am feeling better today and know that I am just a side kick on Tony's journey. I can't stop what is happening to him I can't fix it although I so want to. I guess I fear his death is closer than I am willing to admit. Even my Dad said after his visit ( not to me of course) that 'Tony's gonna die'. My mom responded yes he is...... but it is a harsh reality that we all have to face... and most days we don't want to face it at all....... I know I am not the only one crying lately. I am going in again today and we do have our standing date for Wednesday night where we watch Heroes. Although it may be preempted for the Olympics. .. who knows. I am starting a 9 day work rotation and won't be able to come in much during this period... but Mom's home YAH! and so is his Hospice worker... so slowly I hope things go back to normal. Whatever normal is in this situation ....