Ha! I must be the same age as your Mom! What to do? Time, my dear, is the best healer. Grief counsellors are usually wonderful caring people. You know, death is a part pf life. We know this as humans, but we just put it aside. At the end of the day, you just gotta decide to pick yourself up from the floor and out - one foot in front of the other. Set up a win win situation. Make a list - sort term and long term goals. That works for me. Crying and praying help me too. The peace you seek is in your core... You just gotta dig deep soldier! And soldier on. I'm here anytime you need to,talk. Maybe my perspective as a pals will help you see things differently.