This morning at church when I turned around to pick up my purse after the benediction prayer, there was an envelope on my seat. I opened in and inside was a card and another envelope. The card was a beautiful Christian card with a message of encouragement and a beautiful illustration. There was a handwritten message on the card and it was signed 'Your Sister in Christ'. I waited to open the smaller envelope until I got out of church because the message in the card talked about 'this gift'. When I opened the envelope there were ten hundred dollar bills in it. I couldn't believe it.
I accomplished quite a lot today. I started at 7:00 A.M. Jazzercise. Then my son had a basketball game at 9:30. They lost, but he had his first two free shots and he came really close to getting them. My office/playroom had quite a few boxes of books that I don't have a bookshelf for and I moved those to a closet. Then I organized a little in the garage, but I made sure to stop and rest and not overdo it. I really feel like I accomplished something. And although I thought I would be really tired tonight, I'm not. I love Saturdays like this.
Well, my head and heart are in a better place than yesterday. I still feel overwhelmed with the idea of all the money I will owe for my hospital stay in Houston, but I feel more in control of my emotions and the situation. At work today I felt like I would cry at any minute, but I didn't and I'm glad I made it through another day. I look forward to the weekend and working on my office/playroom to sort and organize and get ready for my new computer.
I am sooooo bummed out. When I received my insurance statement for the hospital bill for my visit to Houston, I realized that I will have to pay considerably more than I thought out-of-pocket. I have done my best to stay upbeat about the cost of all of this, but this brought it home to me. Not only did feelings about how I will be able to pay for this, but worries about not eventually being able to work, going on disability, SSDI, and Medicare came crashing down on me. I spent the whole evening stewing in a pot of worry and self-pity.
Tonight we had choir practice. We have begun to review a song that I sang a solo with the choir on five years ago from Brooklyn Tabernacle's CD 'Be Glad' called 'God is Still Doing Great Things'. I found out tonight that we will be singing it on Easter Sunday. Right now singing is barely affected by my slurred speech, but I have no idea how long I will be able to sing. So I am really excited that I will be able to do this soon. It is a great song and the lyrics are especially pertinent to what I am going through in my life.
I said, 'Lord, help me find a pair of shoes cheap' as I walked across the parking at at the shoe store. Since recently getting rid of my mules, clogs, heels, and flip-flops my closet has looked sparse. But I found a cute pair of red patent ballet flats for $10.99 and a pair of black sporty Skechers Mary Janes for $24.00 both on clearance after that prayer. The Skechers was the only pair and it was just my size. Just like it was waiting for me. Actually, I believe that they were waiting there just for me. Thanks, Lord, you answered my prayer and then some!
Now that I know I am getting a tax refund, I have been looking at computers. Several of my friends, including a brother-in-law who works for one of the big computer companies, has advised me to get one with XP and to avoid Vista. So that limits me, but I found one online that I have saved in my cart while I think about several more features.
This morning my daughter and I went to a local private prepatory school's book fair. And this isn't just any book fair. People come from neighboring states and some are in line as early as 5:00 A.M. to get in when the door opens at 8. We got there at 7:15. It was 31 degrees, but it wasn't too bad, I've been there when it was much colder or in the rain. I figured up that I have gone 19 times. I first went in 1987 and have only missed 3 times, once for a funeral, once because I had the stomach flu, and the last time was right after I had my hysterectomy.
I finally mustered up the courage to do it. What you might say? I just changed my blog so that comments may be left. Now at first, I felt a little vulnerable thinking that people could leave comments and criticisms about what I have written, but I have thought about it and I believe that I am ready for whatever comes. So be gentle with me guys!
I have given my daughter my flip flops. When I fell in early November, it was a warm day and I was wearing flip flops. Now I don't think that it had anything to do with that fall, but to prevent any future problems I agreed with the PT at the ALS Clinic in Houston that they had to go. Now to some this might seem a trivial thing, but it is a sad thing for me. I have always thought that my two best features are my hair and my feet. I have always had pretty feet and I love to wear sandals and show them off. So I will have to find new sandals that have a back strap.