skipper66
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- May 20, 2012
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- IL
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- SMALL TOWN IN
I would like to share a few of my experiences with you. I am sure many of you who are PALS and CALS on here at times have had major struggles with keeping their faith through all this. We question Why? Why? Why? over and over. Never getting the answer that we seek.
My mom passed away of colon cancer almost 17 years ago. I was furious with God and was bound determined to walk away from him totally if he took my mom. Mom begged me not too. On one of her many hospital stays she was in quite a bit of pain and I collapsed totally on the floor of my room because I absolutely couldn't deal with seeing my mom like that. I pleaded and pleaded with God not to let my mom suffer. The next morning I went to see my mom again. She was sitting up in a chair in her hospital room and looked better then she had in weeks. I then glanced and saw that she wasn't hooked up to her morphine pump and was ready to jump all over her nurses. She looked it me and said "Kim, I'm pain-free today. All the sudden it was like a miracle and the pain left my body.'' We discussed the time that it happened and it was at the time I was on my knees in prayer when it happened.
My mom never gave up hoping for a cure until her very last death. But, she did have a prayer she always said. It was a prayer to have a happy death when it would come to be. Mom did die a very peaceful death if anyone can have one. She was kept pain-free. She got to see good-bye to all her family and friends. Dad and I held her hands when she took her last breath.
God will be there for each of you when you have nothing more left to give . When you have no more hope. When you are scared and when you are angry. He will never leave you. He will carry you when you can't take another step or another breath.
I can assure that if God had intervened in my life many times. I wouldn't be here today to even type this. He has pulled me through depression many times. He has thrown me a life jacket many times. He can do the same for you. Just let him. You can even quarrel with him. He can take it. Give him a chance. Kim
My mom passed away of colon cancer almost 17 years ago. I was furious with God and was bound determined to walk away from him totally if he took my mom. Mom begged me not too. On one of her many hospital stays she was in quite a bit of pain and I collapsed totally on the floor of my room because I absolutely couldn't deal with seeing my mom like that. I pleaded and pleaded with God not to let my mom suffer. The next morning I went to see my mom again. She was sitting up in a chair in her hospital room and looked better then she had in weeks. I then glanced and saw that she wasn't hooked up to her morphine pump and was ready to jump all over her nurses. She looked it me and said "Kim, I'm pain-free today. All the sudden it was like a miracle and the pain left my body.'' We discussed the time that it happened and it was at the time I was on my knees in prayer when it happened.
My mom never gave up hoping for a cure until her very last death. But, she did have a prayer she always said. It was a prayer to have a happy death when it would come to be. Mom did die a very peaceful death if anyone can have one. She was kept pain-free. She got to see good-bye to all her family and friends. Dad and I held her hands when she took her last breath.
God will be there for each of you when you have nothing more left to give . When you have no more hope. When you are scared and when you are angry. He will never leave you. He will carry you when you can't take another step or another breath.
I can assure that if God had intervened in my life many times. I wouldn't be here today to even type this. He has pulled me through depression many times. He has thrown me a life jacket many times. He can do the same for you. Just let him. You can even quarrel with him. He can take it. Give him a chance. Kim