Mary Helen Barr
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- Mar 6, 2006
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Believe it or not, my memories are NOT AT ALL horrible. I'm so glad that I was able to help. Sure, it was difficult, but I have a supportive husband and teenaged kids. Others would say " I would never have my daughter doing what you are doing". Well, then I say that's a shame. I'm sure my father never thought his daughter would be doing the things I was doing, but really, it did not give me bad memories. I wished while I was doing all the caregiving that I had more help, but I was still glad to be able to be the one. My father had total confidence in me. I was the only one able to move him. Others either dropped him, or were completely unable to move him. For about a year, the only time he ever was moved was when I was there every morning. Even the professionals were unable to do it. I didn't understand that, but that's the way it was.
The caregiver develops a special relationship with the PALS that others couldn't understand. I still have people telling me how stubborn my dad was in not being willing to go to a home. I disagree. If my dad had WANTED to go to a home, that would have been different, and we would have gone that route. However, it was so important for him to be at home, so I thought it was important, too. I feel like it was a gift. He's been gone for one month, and I wish I could still take care of him. While it was going on, I wanted it to be over, but now that it is over.....
Anyway, don't let the fear of bad memories for you family keep you from accepting their help if they'll give it. I don't have a single bad thought of unpleasant duties that I had to do--just of being able to help my dad.
The caregiver develops a special relationship with the PALS that others couldn't understand. I still have people telling me how stubborn my dad was in not being willing to go to a home. I disagree. If my dad had WANTED to go to a home, that would have been different, and we would have gone that route. However, it was so important for him to be at home, so I thought it was important, too. I feel like it was a gift. He's been gone for one month, and I wish I could still take care of him. While it was going on, I wanted it to be over, but now that it is over.....
Anyway, don't let the fear of bad memories for you family keep you from accepting their help if they'll give it. I don't have a single bad thought of unpleasant duties that I had to do--just of being able to help my dad.