burton 3232
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- Jun 15, 2023
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- Learn about ALS
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- US
- State
- NY
- City
- Gloversville
"Every day you see one more card"
A big hiya to all and thank you for this forum. Means the world to everyone struggling, diagnosed or not. And this forum is a BIG help, so thank you sincerely esp. to PALS and caregivers.
I've read the stickys, gonna break all the rules sorry. Just trying to get through like you are. I have questions and advice both, so here goes:
I'm 60, male, healthy I thought until now.
Recently have fasics in both calves, shortness of breath (when swimming at the Y on heavy exertion), stabbing pain for a few seconds all over body. My left foot feels like it's going to drop, but that may be anxiety, not sure. I've been lurking on this board for a while, so I know that stabbing pain is more of a MS symptom than ALS. Other symptoms have improved: tight forearm muscles on both sides. I know this is not typical of ALS, to improve.
Anxiety through roof. Fear I was exposed to pesticides 4 years ago.
Because I used to smoke dope. Not like the kids today with street drugs: in the classical sense, cannabis.
4 years ago (in NY) a new product came around, 'Dank' brand cartridges. A cartridge is concentrated cannabis oil. Bright packaging, good taste, reasonable price. I stupidly thought they were a legit company. They are not. 'Dank' was just packaging sold to whoever, some being unscrupulous people filling cartridges (carts) with unregulated oil. Some kids died from vitamin E acetate that went into these carts, some got popcorn lung. So they are not harmless cannabis carts like I thought I was buying. Turns out, 84% of cannabis flower is contaminated with either pesticides, herbicides or fungicides. And when you concentrate the flower into cannabis oil, you concentrate the contaminates.
So here's the one more card: pot is not harmless. It is legal but unregulated in NY. There are no dispensaries, meaning it's still a street drug here. You can buy it at the gas station down the street. I did often. And even in the best of regulated states (like Oregon), much of it has pesticides. Esp. the concentrates. So consider that if you are using cannabis or CBD for you pain or anxiety. I highly, highly suggest organic cannabis. And I also recommend ingesting it rather than smoking it, just a word to the wise. It's really not the same pot that you smoked as a teenager, trust me.
All this has caused extreme anxiety as I now have some very guarded symptoms. I have a neurologist appt. on 7/6. I can deal with the symptoms, but not the anxiety. Had to go to my primary and ask for Xanax. Denied. Went back, told her I was in crisis. She gave me a script for 10 days. A blessing - immediately took the edge off. All of a sudden I can eat and sleep again. But she said my anxiety was at a level where I need professional help, and put it back on me to find help elsewhere. So tomorrow I am going to a local clinic to see if I can get a script.
So out of Xanax. Had to resort to drinking to keep heart rate down. Not ideal, but was close to panic. Don't judge, I have good character and don't want to drink but really the stress was causing chest pains, racing heart, sweating, hyper-ventilating. It was literally killing me, I could feel it. Found that White Claw seltzer is low sugar, low calorie and I don't get drunk, just able to sit in my own skin.
My questions:
1- does ALS present with bilateral calve twitching? Most posts I've seen here and on YouTube say that it is usually localized to one muscle.
2- what should I ask for at my appointment? An EMG for sure. NCV? My primary put in for an MRI - denied by my insurance. But they called me and said they would reconsider if the neurologist also requests it. So probably that too, no?
3- how do you deal with this terrible anxiety? Feel kinda self-conscious for asking for Xanax, but it really helped me. Isn't that the point of meds?
Thanks in advance for your help, ... Burton
"We take it on faith, we take it to the heart, the waiting is the hardest part" - TP
A big hiya to all and thank you for this forum. Means the world to everyone struggling, diagnosed or not. And this forum is a BIG help, so thank you sincerely esp. to PALS and caregivers.
I've read the stickys, gonna break all the rules sorry. Just trying to get through like you are. I have questions and advice both, so here goes:
I'm 60, male, healthy I thought until now.
Recently have fasics in both calves, shortness of breath (when swimming at the Y on heavy exertion), stabbing pain for a few seconds all over body. My left foot feels like it's going to drop, but that may be anxiety, not sure. I've been lurking on this board for a while, so I know that stabbing pain is more of a MS symptom than ALS. Other symptoms have improved: tight forearm muscles on both sides. I know this is not typical of ALS, to improve.
Anxiety through roof. Fear I was exposed to pesticides 4 years ago.
Because I used to smoke dope. Not like the kids today with street drugs: in the classical sense, cannabis.
4 years ago (in NY) a new product came around, 'Dank' brand cartridges. A cartridge is concentrated cannabis oil. Bright packaging, good taste, reasonable price. I stupidly thought they were a legit company. They are not. 'Dank' was just packaging sold to whoever, some being unscrupulous people filling cartridges (carts) with unregulated oil. Some kids died from vitamin E acetate that went into these carts, some got popcorn lung. So they are not harmless cannabis carts like I thought I was buying. Turns out, 84% of cannabis flower is contaminated with either pesticides, herbicides or fungicides. And when you concentrate the flower into cannabis oil, you concentrate the contaminates.
So here's the one more card: pot is not harmless. It is legal but unregulated in NY. There are no dispensaries, meaning it's still a street drug here. You can buy it at the gas station down the street. I did often. And even in the best of regulated states (like Oregon), much of it has pesticides. Esp. the concentrates. So consider that if you are using cannabis or CBD for you pain or anxiety. I highly, highly suggest organic cannabis. And I also recommend ingesting it rather than smoking it, just a word to the wise. It's really not the same pot that you smoked as a teenager, trust me.
All this has caused extreme anxiety as I now have some very guarded symptoms. I have a neurologist appt. on 7/6. I can deal with the symptoms, but not the anxiety. Had to go to my primary and ask for Xanax. Denied. Went back, told her I was in crisis. She gave me a script for 10 days. A blessing - immediately took the edge off. All of a sudden I can eat and sleep again. But she said my anxiety was at a level where I need professional help, and put it back on me to find help elsewhere. So tomorrow I am going to a local clinic to see if I can get a script.
So out of Xanax. Had to resort to drinking to keep heart rate down. Not ideal, but was close to panic. Don't judge, I have good character and don't want to drink but really the stress was causing chest pains, racing heart, sweating, hyper-ventilating. It was literally killing me, I could feel it. Found that White Claw seltzer is low sugar, low calorie and I don't get drunk, just able to sit in my own skin.
My questions:
1- does ALS present with bilateral calve twitching? Most posts I've seen here and on YouTube say that it is usually localized to one muscle.
2- what should I ask for at my appointment? An EMG for sure. NCV? My primary put in for an MRI - denied by my insurance. But they called me and said they would reconsider if the neurologist also requests it. So probably that too, no?
3- how do you deal with this terrible anxiety? Feel kinda self-conscious for asking for Xanax, but it really helped me. Isn't that the point of meds?
Thanks in advance for your help, ... Burton
"We take it on faith, we take it to the heart, the waiting is the hardest part" - TP