Hey Sasha58. I think this thing has completely overwhelmed me. Poor mom is generally a great patient, problem is she has lost all movement apart from her right hand. I have only a pathologist to watch her general situation and a ENT to follow how she eats. I call her neurologist in the hospital to update him for her situation and the one who is in out city is a general one who seems scared of the whole situation. When i brought him home the first time to chek on her he left the house asap as he finished the examination. We have a foam matress but she is resisiting it. She is stubborn like that wants things to happen on her own way. She doesnt sleep at night, apart from the first 3 hours, she continues to go to bed at 12 at night just like when she was healthy. I asked her doc if we could give her something to sleep at night but he said its going to make her even heavier during the day. We are still considering it. We are exhausted all 3 of us. The other day she apologised to me, i said hey mum no, why apologise? No. She said you go to work and then you come here and i also keep u up. She can barely talk now. She is so beautiful. With a fantastic skin you know. And amazing eyes. Up till this came up she had no health issues. Looking at us with those big eyes. I got my own fear of being sick too and all that heavys on me so much. I dont know what to do, still remain rather bitter i must say.