LizT
Very helpful member
- Joined
- Aug 8, 2010
- Messages
- 1,547
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Country
- US
- State
- WI
- City
- Beaver Dam
In memory of my dear Ray... who was and still is my whole heart. In my darkest days, Ray was the only one who could help me, now he is gone. But a strange thing is happening- i am changing. I am not so scared of the little things anymore. Im finding more courage. My heart has not closed off to others who need my love. And i believe with all of my being, that this is still the work of my dear sweet Ray.
I was having a conversation with a friend of mine on the phone in the same room as Ray, just a few days before he died. It was a really deep conversation about life and taking chances. I told my good friend that she's just GOT to fight for what she wants. i didnt want to see her end up like me... full of anxiety and too afraid to do anything. I let my fears stop me from really living. i saw that Ray was listening and I think that conversation stuck with him. He looked at me like he was so proud for what i had just said to my friend.
This conversation also stuck with me...and still does. The thing that makes it really neat, is that when Ray died, a LOT of my anxiety vanished. I did things Ive never done before. i was nervous, but i wasnt scared. I think this was Rays gift to me.
So, I would like to thank Ray, for bettering my life, even in death. I love you Jug. Always.
I was having a conversation with a friend of mine on the phone in the same room as Ray, just a few days before he died. It was a really deep conversation about life and taking chances. I told my good friend that she's just GOT to fight for what she wants. i didnt want to see her end up like me... full of anxiety and too afraid to do anything. I let my fears stop me from really living. i saw that Ray was listening and I think that conversation stuck with him. He looked at me like he was so proud for what i had just said to my friend.
This conversation also stuck with me...and still does. The thing that makes it really neat, is that when Ray died, a LOT of my anxiety vanished. I did things Ive never done before. i was nervous, but i wasnt scared. I think this was Rays gift to me.
So, I would like to thank Ray, for bettering my life, even in death. I love you Jug. Always.