- Joined
- May 9, 2016
- Messages
- 1,529
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 06/2016
- Country
- US
- State
- MN
- City
- Minneapolis
Well okay not acting on all my rotten thoughts but thinking them. I finally got some sleep last night. Today though Brian wants a shower now, wants laundry now, keeps acting like I need to do more and do it faster. How I dare I watch TV? Laundry! How long will you be at the store he asks. Mind you I work full time and he can still be on his own, he just wants me back on the double to get stuff done.
Doing stuff is all I seem to do these days. My life is worried and tired and angry too often. Yup, today I am just mad. He use to run around all the time like an energizer bunny so if I'm not I'm being a bum.
I know he is terminal, I know he is disabled, I know he has lost things I can only imagine. So, I feel guilty for thinking rotten things like "Sure, back in a jiffy for His Magesty's shower". I am in the car at the store writing this on the sly and feeling crabby. I'll get over it, it's just been a hard week.
Doing stuff is all I seem to do these days. My life is worried and tired and angry too often. Yup, today I am just mad. He use to run around all the time like an energizer bunny so if I'm not I'm being a bum.
I know he is terminal, I know he is disabled, I know he has lost things I can only imagine. So, I feel guilty for thinking rotten things like "Sure, back in a jiffy for His Magesty's shower". I am in the car at the store writing this on the sly and feeling crabby. I'll get over it, it's just been a hard week.