CJ,
Just wanted to say how sorry I am to hear of your sweetheart's passing. I know no words I say can bring him back or give you comfort. Just know you are not alone. I am sorry to hear his family has been aweful through it all. Unfortunately, I know how that feels, especially at a time like this and have been working to put distance between them and us. Its a day to day thing. Some days are harder then others, and sometimes you don't even understand why, ... its not like its a "special date/day",.. I don't understand it either hon. Unfortunately know that its just something, as CALS, we all have to wade through and go through. Definately no way of bypassing this storm. Just know, its a testiment to the love we shared, the love we gave, and got in return, and no one can ever change that.
*hugs* and much love,
~ Becca