LizT
Very helpful member
- Joined
- Aug 8, 2010
- Messages
- 1,547
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Country
- US
- State
- WI
- City
- Beaver Dam
Today marks the one month anniversary of Ray's death. I dont quite understand how its been this long, but the calendar doesnt lie.
I just had a really great weekend. I got away with a good friend and had some genuine fun. I had a good day today, but, just like that, now Im not.
What triggered it? Trying to support another young CALS who lost her husband recently. Something as simple as giving a few examples of how I truly understood what she was going through. Just like that... it all came rushing back to me. I get flashbacks of what happened the weekend he died. I can be in the middle of a conversation with someone, and out of the blue, I can see him lying in his caskett. This will haunt me for the rest of my days. And judging by the way its going, it will hit me when I least expect it.
One month ago today, the world as I knew it- ended. One month ago today, the love of my life lost his life. One month ago today, I lost my future.
I still dont know how its possible for me to be alive when clearly my heart has been dead for a month.
I just had a really great weekend. I got away with a good friend and had some genuine fun. I had a good day today, but, just like that, now Im not.
What triggered it? Trying to support another young CALS who lost her husband recently. Something as simple as giving a few examples of how I truly understood what she was going through. Just like that... it all came rushing back to me. I get flashbacks of what happened the weekend he died. I can be in the middle of a conversation with someone, and out of the blue, I can see him lying in his caskett. This will haunt me for the rest of my days. And judging by the way its going, it will hit me when I least expect it.
One month ago today, the world as I knew it- ended. One month ago today, the love of my life lost his life. One month ago today, I lost my future.
I still dont know how its possible for me to be alive when clearly my heart has been dead for a month.