chrismaya
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- Joined
- May 23, 2008
- Messages
- 44
- Reason
- Loved one DX
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- US
- State
- NJ
- City
- So. Plainfield
...since my mother died from ALS. She had been coughing for quite some time whenever we would eat together. She always blamed it on "too much pepper." Then some dementia set in. Then some breathlessness. Then some choking. Then some right-arm difficulties. Then slurring of her words. After quite some time without answers, we finally found out it was ALS.
Due to her slight dementia........(I say "slight," because she always knew me, always knew my children and a lot of other important things)............she was not fully aware of what was happening to her. She took it all in stride. When I would see her and ask her if she knew who I was, she would look at me like I was nuts! "Of course I know who you are!"
Yet she didn't know she couldn't stand upright. She didn't know why she was going to doctors. She knew nothing of her disease......at all. I believe this was God protecting her, because my mother was so very fearful of doctors and negative things happening to her.
So I watched her fall. I watched her choke. I watched her not be able to speak clearly to me. I watched this immaculate woman turn into someone completely different.
But the most amazing thing was I watched someone who was always angry, rageful and worried turn into someone strong, kind and brave.
ALS gave my mother something she never had all her life. Strength.
I was with her as she took her last breath on August 31, 2008.
I miss you, Mommy.
Due to her slight dementia........(I say "slight," because she always knew me, always knew my children and a lot of other important things)............she was not fully aware of what was happening to her. She took it all in stride. When I would see her and ask her if she knew who I was, she would look at me like I was nuts! "Of course I know who you are!"
Yet she didn't know she couldn't stand upright. She didn't know why she was going to doctors. She knew nothing of her disease......at all. I believe this was God protecting her, because my mother was so very fearful of doctors and negative things happening to her.
So I watched her fall. I watched her choke. I watched her not be able to speak clearly to me. I watched this immaculate woman turn into someone completely different.
But the most amazing thing was I watched someone who was always angry, rageful and worried turn into someone strong, kind and brave.
ALS gave my mother something she never had all her life. Strength.
I was with her as she took her last breath on August 31, 2008.
I miss you, Mommy.