LovemyPALS
Member
- Joined
- Nov 21, 2009
- Messages
- 25
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Country
- US
- State
- Texas
- City
- Little Elm
Although I have not been a daily or consistent attendee of this forum, I feel lost and don't know where else to turn to get understanding.
My father, The Captain of my families ship and the Godfather to my family passed on 1/8th 2011. Although, we knew this time would come eventually, we did not think it would come as quick as it did. My dad had plateaued for months at a time. He was eating (without a PEG) and breathing on his own up until 3 days of his passing. He never struggled with eating. He was still talking, with a drunk slur, but was still understandable.
His stomach was extended with GAS. He could not pass gas, or have a bowel movement. This was the beginning of the 'end of life'. On a humorous note, my dad, was obsessed about his bowel movements and gas. He was on a routine for years. Once his system was no longer on his routine, he had anxiety over it. Who would have known that his humorous, 'gatta have a emergency (bowel movement)' would be the reason for his passing..
I feel guilty for only posting this after he has passed and have not been a consistent poster. But he is gone now and all I know is that you all know how it feels. I NEVER thought I would be in the memorial forum. but I am now. He was my dad. My bud. The one child of his that was so much like him.
where do I go from here? what do I do with my time? who do I worry about?
My father, The Captain of my families ship and the Godfather to my family passed on 1/8th 2011. Although, we knew this time would come eventually, we did not think it would come as quick as it did. My dad had plateaued for months at a time. He was eating (without a PEG) and breathing on his own up until 3 days of his passing. He never struggled with eating. He was still talking, with a drunk slur, but was still understandable.
His stomach was extended with GAS. He could not pass gas, or have a bowel movement. This was the beginning of the 'end of life'. On a humorous note, my dad, was obsessed about his bowel movements and gas. He was on a routine for years. Once his system was no longer on his routine, he had anxiety over it. Who would have known that his humorous, 'gatta have a emergency (bowel movement)' would be the reason for his passing..
I feel guilty for only posting this after he has passed and have not been a consistent poster. But he is gone now and all I know is that you all know how it feels. I NEVER thought I would be in the memorial forum. but I am now. He was my dad. My bud. The one child of his that was so much like him.
where do I go from here? what do I do with my time? who do I worry about?