Dear erinjca,
I am a caregiver to my mom. She has both frontotemporal dementia and ALS. She doesn't complain very often, except to say that she is tired of all the medical devices and people who come with them. I do know however, that she gets tired of people asking her to write everything down on her board because she can't be understood, people telling her to take small bites of food and swallow what's in her mouth before she puts more in, what she can eat, when she can eat, when she can go to the store, and just about everything else.
On the other hand, it can be very emotionally and physically draining caring for her. Anticipating all of her needs day in and day out. I actually feel the way you describe how you're feeling sometimes. Like every little thing is irritating me. I try never to let this spill over while I'm with my mom, but it has been affecting my relationships with my husband and kids when I'm at home. (I take care of my mom at her house). I feel a lot of guilt for this, because I am not the one who has this horrible disease.
I don't know what could make you feel better. I just try to really make an effort to do what she wants when she wants it, and try to be very patient. Sometimes I just tell her I'm so sorry that she has to endure all of this. Maybe some PALS could give some advice for caregivers.
What Hal wrote is absolutely true. My oldest son had leukemia when he was young, and I can't tell you how many times I wished that I could take on everything he had to go through.
Laura