snugd35
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I feel the need to get some things out. I've had a rough few days. My grandma had to go back to the clinic this past week and the night before she went she fell in the tub. I feel its time my grandparents get some help with them both being almost 80. At the clinic she went through a nerve test, breathing test of some sort and some other things. It was a two day event that they got done in a day because the clinic is 3 hours away. All day I was wondering how things were going. The same day she was there I found out my grandpa's sister and her husband aren't doing well and he probably wont make it till July. They think my grandma broke ribs from the fall, shes been in pain all week. She goes tomorrow to get a new brace I believe for her legs, a breathing machine, get blood drawn, therapy, and also to a respiratory doctor. She has a long day ahead of her...
Finding out I may be losing 3 people Im close to has been very hard this week. To make matters worse, every year for Memorial Day, the Sunday before my parents, grandparents, and I take flowers to the cemetery for our loved ones. While we were at my grandpa's fathers my dad asked me if I saw my grandparents headstone yet...They have my grandparents headstone already on their plot. I knew they had a plot but seeing that headstone just hit me harder than I ever expected. I had to fight back tears. It made it all too real for me. I know it was recently done because my grandpa said they were supposed to call so he could look at it and make sure it looked ok before they brought it out...well they never called. I was fine that day until I saw that and then almost anything made me want to cry. I cried on the way to meeting friends and friends could tell I was quiet. Im normally the goofball of the group. When they hugged me and asked how I was, again had to fight back tears.
I hate that Im on the verge of tears all the time. Im normally not a person who cries in front of people so its hard for me to keep it together. I know my friends understand and they are amazing and supportive but its still hard. All week I've just wanted to cry. Today I broke down a little a did...I was afraid I wouldnt stop. Is it normal to break down and cry so often? Should I be stronger than this? I feel ashamed I cant hold things together. Part of me wants to explain more to my friends that when Im quiet Im just having a rough day with things but dont want it to seem like Im doing it for attention. Sometimes its easier if they dont ask how things are...
Please tell me Im somewhat normal for all this..
Finding out I may be losing 3 people Im close to has been very hard this week. To make matters worse, every year for Memorial Day, the Sunday before my parents, grandparents, and I take flowers to the cemetery for our loved ones. While we were at my grandpa's fathers my dad asked me if I saw my grandparents headstone yet...They have my grandparents headstone already on their plot. I knew they had a plot but seeing that headstone just hit me harder than I ever expected. I had to fight back tears. It made it all too real for me. I know it was recently done because my grandpa said they were supposed to call so he could look at it and make sure it looked ok before they brought it out...well they never called. I was fine that day until I saw that and then almost anything made me want to cry. I cried on the way to meeting friends and friends could tell I was quiet. Im normally the goofball of the group. When they hugged me and asked how I was, again had to fight back tears.
I hate that Im on the verge of tears all the time. Im normally not a person who cries in front of people so its hard for me to keep it together. I know my friends understand and they are amazing and supportive but its still hard. All week I've just wanted to cry. Today I broke down a little a did...I was afraid I wouldnt stop. Is it normal to break down and cry so often? Should I be stronger than this? I feel ashamed I cant hold things together. Part of me wants to explain more to my friends that when Im quiet Im just having a rough day with things but dont want it to seem like Im doing it for attention. Sometimes its easier if they dont ask how things are...
Please tell me Im somewhat normal for all this..