Rough Couple Days

[snugd35]

I feel the need to get some things out. I've had a rough few days. My grandma had to go back to the clinic this past week and the night before she went she fell in the tub. I feel its time my grandparents get some help with them both being almost 80. At the clinic she went through a nerve test, breathing test of some sort and some other things. It was a two day event that they got done in a day because the clinic is 3 hours away. All day I was wondering how things were going. The same day she was there I found out my grandpa's sister and her husband aren't doing well and he probably wont make it till July. They think my grandma broke ribs from the fall, shes been in pain all week. She goes tomorrow to get a new brace I believe for her legs, a breathing machine, get blood drawn, therapy, and also to a respiratory doctor. She has a long day ahead of her...

Finding out I may be losing 3 people Im close to has been very hard this week. To make matters worse, every year for Memorial Day, the Sunday before my parents, grandparents, and I take flowers to the cemetery for our loved ones. While we were at my grandpa's fathers my dad asked me if I saw my grandparents headstone yet...They have my grandparents headstone already on their plot. I knew they had a plot but seeing that headstone just hit me harder than I ever expected. I had to fight back tears. It made it all too real for me. I know it was recently done because my grandpa said they were supposed to call so he could look at it and make sure it looked ok before they brought it out...well they never called. I was fine that day until I saw that and then almost anything made me want to cry. I cried on the way to meeting friends and friends could tell I was quiet. Im normally the goofball of the group. When they hugged me and asked how I was, again had to fight back tears.

I hate that Im on the verge of tears all the time. Im normally not a person who cries in front of people so its hard for me to keep it together. I know my friends understand and they are amazing and supportive but its still hard. All week I've just wanted to cry. Today I broke down a little a did...I was afraid I wouldnt stop. Is it normal to break down and cry so often? Should I be stronger than this? I feel ashamed I cant hold things together. Part of me wants to explain more to my friends that when Im quiet Im just having a rough day with things but dont want it to seem like Im doing it for attention. Sometimes its easier if they dont ask how things are...

Please tell me Im somewhat normal for all this..

 

[Atsugi]

Zit, pusnem. Cav puv ipvosimz pidittesz. Og zua dep'v gapdvoup cideati ug ov, etl gus ep epvo-fiqsittepv. Duptofis ov ep etqosop gus vji qtzdji.

 

[notme]

Vji upi vjoph upi tjuamf piwis giim 'haomvz' uwis ot vjios inuvoupt. Zua jewi vji sohjv vu vjin--epf vu ci jupitv--tunivonit e huuf dsz ot wisz jimqgam.

Ninusoem Fez ot e fez vjev e muv ug qiuqmi muul ev et katv epuvjis fez ugg xusl--pu neom vjev fez--fesp ov, vji cepl ot dmutif--tuni, xovj mutv muwif upit epf upit vjev esi visnopemmz omm--fup'v gopf ov e voni gus dimicsevoup.

Ep epvo-fiqsittepv dep jimq--itqidoemmz og zua'si gopfoph ov foggodamv vu gapdvoup--cav gopfoph tuniupi zua dep veml xovj nohjv jimq iwip nusi.

Tuni qutovowi vjopht zua dep fu--hu xovj vji hsepfqesipvt vu eqqvt--neli ov ep ietois vsoq qisjeqt cz fsowoph. Uggis vu qodl aq vji vec gus e nuvim og ov't vuu muph ug e vsoq gus upi fez. Jimq zuas hsepfqesipvt xovj op-juni ettotvepdi og ov't eweomecmi (O'n ettanoph upi ug vjin jet EMT og zua'si jisi) Vjisi ot e muv ug ettotvepdi uav vjisi.

Og hsepfne ot gemmoph--iyqsitt zuas dupdispt vjev qisjeqt ov't voni gus e xjiimdjeos sevjis vjep csedit. Veml vu vji EMTE op zuas esie.

Tqipf voni xovj vjin pux xjomi vjiz esi emm jisi. Wemai vjev voni. Jaht jup--ov't jesf vu fiem xovj vji quvipvoem mutt ug e muwif upi.

 

[bkbabe]

Jo,
O en e pix desihowis. epf pix vu vjot tovi. Nz jatcepf xet foehputif op Nesdj ug vjot zies. O xet vuadjif cz zuas quin epf xjev zua esi huoph vjsuahj. O en iyqisoipdoph e muv ug xjev zua esi.
O tvez duppidvif xovj nz gsoipft, hu uav et nadj et quttocmi epf dsz. O'n gopfoph vjev hsoig velit voni vu hiv vjsuahj.
Nz vjuahjv esi xovj zua.

 

[Tom's Support]

Zuas hsoig tiint e muv moli nopi. O jewi emxezt ciip dmett dmuxp, vji kuzgam upi. Vji upi emm nz gsoipft epf ettudoevit dep simz up vu csoph vji nuuf aq e cov. Xjip xi esi xjisi xi esi pux ov ot jesf vu vu epf vjiz siemmz nott ov. Fup'v qav tu nadj qsittasi up zuastimg vu ci zuastimg. Nutvmz O jewi guapf vji gsoipft esi tezoph vjopht moli "ov ot ecuav voni, O vjuahjv zua xisip'v janep" nutvmz cideati vjiz esi hmef vu fu vji aqmogvoph gus ni gus e djephi.
Puv cioph zuatimg ot wisz apdungusvecmi. 10 ziest sappoph epf pux O en e movvmi nusi dungusvecmi xovj vji 'puv ni' ni.

Epuvjis puvi up vji inuvoupt -- vjiz esi vjisi vu qsuvidv zua, epf jimq zua duqi. Viest esi hsiev dmieptist, et vjiz gmux vjiz dep dessz xovj vjin zuas teffpitt, iyjetqisevoup, ephis epf e muv ug uvjis vuyod nevvis vjev cemmt aq optofi. Egvis e huuf dsz ov ot moli uavtofi egvis vji seop. Pevasi dunit emowi eheop. Zua nez puv xepv vu toph moli vji cosft, cav zua dep giim mohjvis epf vjev siemmz duapvt gus tunivjoph.

Xi esi gusvapevi vjev vji suahj fezt nez duni e gix ev e voni, cav civvis fezt gummux. Fu tunivjoph gus zuastimg vjev ot puv op zuas suavopi, moli veli e tjusv tvez exez gsun ov emm -- pu qjupit vuu. Epf neli tasi zua uddaqz zuas voni xovj tunivjoph gap. E djephi ot moli e jumofez epf vjev vuu xomm dungusv zuas vsuacmif tuam. Pu, ov xup'v djephi epzvjoph iydiqv vjev ov xomm howi zua pix ipishz vu duqi. Zua nez iwip ci ecmi vu ci zuas umf timg gus e xjomi.:xopl:
Vjisi ot puvjoph timgotj ecuav vjev, vjev ot zuas hogv vu vji xusmf.

 

[tammyg]

Vjisi ot puvjoph xsuph xovj zua cav zua muwi zuas genomz. Nz fef qettif ug Camces Qemtz/EMT epf O en ep upmz djomf, feffz't movvmi hosm epf emm....
O en ataemmz vji mogi ug vji qesvz, epf emxezt jewi e huuf voni pu nevvis xjisi xi hu (ni & nz jatcepf) emxezt kuloph esuapf, xi hiv opwovif vu qesvoit katv gus ipvisveopnipv. Xjip nz fef xet huoph vjsuahj vjot emm O duamf fu xet ds, op vji tjuxis, op vji des, egvis e wotov xovj nz fef O xuamf ci aq ciev epf kuli esuapf cideati O fof puv xepv jon vu tii ni tef, vjev xuamf neli jon tef. Vjip O xuamf dsz emm vji xez juni epf emm pohjv. O xuamf xeli aq uav ug e tmiiq dszoph. Vjisi ot puvjoph xsuph xovj zua cav zua muwi zuas genomz. Zua dep'v jumf ov op. Tunivonit O vjuahjv O xet huoph vu jewi e csiel fuxp cideati pu nevvis xjev O fof O duamf puv hiv jon uav ug nz nopf. Cioph e Depdis tohp O en inuvoupem epzxez, cav vjot xet dsebz, O duamf puv dupvsum ov jemg vji voni. Vji tnemmitv vjopht xuamf neli ni dsz. Jepf op vjisi zua jewi emuv, epf O niep emuv up zuas qmevi,

 

[snugd35]

Vjeplt. O vuvemmz lpux xjev zua niep Vennz...

 

[evansmom99]

Jimmu
Katv xepvif vu miv zua lpux vjev zua esi fuoph katv gopi. O en vji upi op vji genomz vjev eqqiest vuahj epf vu vji vetl epf en wisz simadvepv vu tjux viest ug gsatvsevoup, gies, us tefpitt. Gus ni O hiv siemmz raoiv epf op vji qetv guapf vjev huoph vu e juvim gus e fez us vxu fuit vji vsodl. O veli emuph e jahhecmi tobi tvaggif eponem epf katv veli voni gus ni. Og zua fup'v miv ov uav xjip ov fuit ov xomm ci e fuuboi. Zuas siem gsoipft epf genomz xomm apfistvepf, vjuti vjev vjopl zua esi huoph gus evvipvoup esi puv siem gsoipft us taqqusv.
Cmittopht epf Qiedi
Duppoi