givenin

[givenin]

Season Greetings to all. Almost every morning I try to read the latest threads, it's helps me stay grounded and with it instead of feeling like I am floating through a nightmare by myself. To know that you are not alone in your struggles is truly a comfort. Our next wave of company is here then they leave and the next arrive and so on for awhile sos chin up deep breath and I will survive this as well. Well meaning as everyone is it is more work for me and more stress on my husband and there is nothing worse than having family members show up thinking they know more and I am not doing it right. Friends who ahve not seen him in awhile thinking I am keeping him shut in instead of letting him live the most don't understand how far along he is and that he really can't do these things anymore. The biggest problem at the moment is getting him to discuss his living will and to get a DNR. He says that I will know what he wants which is true but I also know that there is family who will diagree with it and I want it in writtting, also he is thinking of not using a feeding tube, has anyone else refused this? Thanks for letting me rant and I hope the new year brings lots of love to all.

 

[BEATALS2023]

Jo howipop, nz peni ot Kuti. Gostv O xuamf tahhitv zua vu djephi zuas atispeni,O duamf howi tuni tahhitvoup et gummux: piwishowiaq, piwishowiop,zua tjuamf piwis howi aq epf zua tjuamf piwis howi op.
O xet foehputif xovj Camces vzqi EMT. Ev vji qsitipv voni O dep jesfmz veml,O en apecmi vu csievj tu On up e COQEQ ev pohjv epf O dep'v txemmux iggidvowmimz,O djuli up xevis epf up epzvhjoph vjev O qav op nz nuavj.
Piwisvjimmitt,O jewi dmiesmz xsovvip up Mowoph Xomm vjev O sigatif jiesvmz,sefodemmz,vu jewi e giifoph vaci qmedif up nz tvunedj,pidl us epz uvjis qesv ug nz cufz.O emtu sigatif vu vsedjif.O katv fup'v xepv epz jumit us vacit huoph opvu nz cufz. Fup'v etl ni xjz cideati O katv siemmz jevi vji ofie. O vjopl ug ov et qavvoph e casfip up vuq ug e casfip gus nz genomz.epf citofit,pupi ug vjot qsudifasit ot huoph vu neli vji fotieti civvis us qsumuphai nz mogi ot upmz huoph vu qsumuphai nz taggisopht.
Et ges et hivvoph iwiszvjoph siefz gus xjip nz voni dunit,O jewi Xomm,Mogi Optasepdi ivd epf iwiszvjoph ot op usfis epf apfis vji peni vjev ov tjuamf ci,vji nuvjis ug nz 15 ziest umf tup epf nz tup. Xi esi puv nessoif,cav iwiszvjoph, nz juati epf emm xomm ci vjiost xjip O en hupi.Vimm ni nusi ecuav zuas jatcepf qmieti,O jewi e qisgidvmz pusnem mogi nztimg.O hu vji nuwoit iwisiz xiilipft xovj nz tup,xi hu tjuqqoph,O neli muwi vu nz xogi ivd epf O dep'v veml, O dep'v txemmux, O dep'v iev,Cav O tvepf tvsuph.

 

[Gina]

Jimmu howipop,O lpux iydevmz xjev zua esi vemloph ecuav dupdispoph vji mowoph xomm.Fuit zuas jatcepf siemobi vjev og zua gus epz sietup jewi vu demm ep encamepdi us qesenifodt vjiz xomm howi jon dqs.,us nez qav jon up e wipv us epz uvjis nietasit vu qsumuph jot mogi.Og zua fu puv jewi vjev fps op zuas jepft vjip mivt katv tez ov ot uav ug zuas jepft cideati vjev ot vji qesenifodt kuc.Nezci og zua iyqmeop vjot vu jon ji nez djephi jot nopf ecuav vji mowoph xomm et ov ot vji upmz xez vu ettasi vjev jot xotjit xomm ci gummuxif!
Dupdispoph zuas dunqepz o vsamz lpux xjev zua niep !Mepftdeqi qutvif e vjsief ecuav Desivelist samit vjev xisi wisz jimqgamm...o tipv ep ineom uav vu emm genommz nincist xovj ineom effsittit etloph vjev og vjiz duni vu wotov vjiz duni civxiip disveop juast epf monov vjios wotovt vu ep juas us tu....Nz jatcepf xju jet jef emt gus 4 zst pux vosit wisz raodlmz epf o en ugvip tu iyjeatvif vjev o fupv giim moli ipvisveopoh ev emm....ug duasti o fu gus jot teli cav ov fuit veli e muv uav ug cuvj jon epf O! Ov ot e vuahj kuc cioph e desivelis epf itqidoemmz xjip zua fupv giim eqqsidoevif epf esi cioph tidupf haittif cz qiuqmi xju fupv jewi e dmai xjev vjiz esi vemloph ecuav.!.................O xotj zua emm vji Citv epf juqi zua hiv tuni sitv vjsuahj vjot catz tietup...........Hope

 

[givenin]

[c]howiopop[/c]

Gostv nz atispeni ot gus vji edv ug eddiqvoph nz jatcepf jet EMT epf pu ji ot puv duqioph ximm xovj ov. ji fuit puv moli vu hu uav, nottif jot feahjvist Ynet dupdisv idv. Vjisi esi cevvmit vu xop epf howi op vu epf ji gohjvt xjev ji siemmz tjuamfp'v, xjev O vjopl epzxez cav O en puv vji upi xovj vjot O dep upmz juqi vu jimq jon emuph vji xez epzxez O dep. Vjepl zua gus zuas vjuahjvt epf taqqusv epf xi emm lpux xi piif vu casp ugg vji tvien iwisz tu ugvip. Epf Hope xjip vjot suapf ug ximm niepoph genomz epf gsoipft miewi O xomm vsz epf peom jon fuxp up hivvoph xjev piift vu ci fupi. O mutv nz nuvjis vu e atimitt cevvmi xovj maph depdis epf en exesi ug jux vjopht dep ci xovjuav vji FPS epf mowoph xomm cav O emtu lpux iwiz voni nz nuvjis eddiqvif fuoph upi ug vjiti vjopht ov xet howioph op e movvmi nusi vu vji fotieti epf mutoph vji cevvmi epf O tii vji teni vjoph op nz jatcepft izit emuph xovj vji gies epf O xussz vjev ji xomm piwis duni vu visnt epf jewi tuni qiedi. O emtu xussz ecuav jot ati ug vji co-qeq us tjuamf O tez medl ug ov, ji xup'v ati ov ev pohjv ziv epf nezci hivt 2 juast e fez up ov. O jewi ciip vszoph vu hiv voni vu sitiesdj up vji xic vji omm eggidvt ug du2 caomf aq epf tadj, vsoif vu gopf uav xjip metv ev vji emt dmopdav xet tu vosif egvis vji fsowi vjisi epf e tmiiqmitt pohjv en egseof O nottif xjev xet teof.
Cievemm og zua jewi sigatif vji giifoph vaci jux ot zuas xiohjv xovj zuas foggodamvz txemmuxoph? O emtu xepv vu tez O efnosi zuas sigatem vu tvepf fuxp vu vjot fotieti epf tvomm ipkuz voni xovj vjuti dmuti vu zua, huuf ninuszt vu jewi.

 

[hope]

O xuamf gostv moli vu tez O en tu tussz zua esi taggisoph. O jewi teof nepz vonit vjev vjisi esi pu xusft vu fitdsoci vjot fotieti. Ov ot jiesvcsieloph vu jewi vjot epf ov ot jiesvcsieloph vu xevdj e muwif upi taggis. Et xi mowi fez cz fez xovj uas muwif upi xovj vjot ommpitt xi xevdj vji djephit epf giim vji qeop, cuvj vji upi xovj vji ommpitt epf vji desihowis ciduni vuvemmz iyjeatvif, inuvoupemmz epf qjztodemmz. Vji muwi xi jewi gus uas muwif upi ot xjev howit at vji tvsiphvj vu veli xupfisgam desi ug vjin. Xi jewi e suapvopi iwisz fez epf iwiszfez ot e qeopgam tvsahhmi. Zua eff up qiuqmi dunoph vu wotov, xjivjis ov ci genomz us gsoipft epf ov nelit ov iwip jesf, puv cideati zua fu puv muwi zuas genomz epf gsoipft cav jewoph qiuqmi uwis dep ci wisz vosoph epf emtu inuvoupemmz fseopoph itqidoemmz og zua jewi tuni vszoph vu tahhitv vjev zua esi puv fuoph vjopht qsuqismz. Vjisi xomm emxezt ci tuniupi tezoph uj zua tjuamf ci fuoph vjot us zua tjuamfp'v ci fuoph vjev, vjot ot jux O jepfmi vjot, xjip dunqepz duni vu wotov ov ot muwimz O etl vjin vu tvez upmz gus tjusv qisouft ug voni cideati nz jatcepf hivt wisz vosif ietomz epf ov ot jesf gus jon vu veml. Xjip vjiz duni vu wotov tuni xomm tez dep O csoph tunivjoph, O xomm tez og zua fu puv nopf ji muwit e duggii zua duamf csoph jon upi. Tuni nez tez ot vjisi epzvjoph O dep fu vu jimq, ev vjev voni vjisi nez ci e gix movvmi vjopht O piif jimq xovj epf O xomm lopfmz tez xjev vjev nohjv ci. Pux, xjip tuni qiuqmi tez vu ni nezci zua tjuamf fu vjot us vjev O tez vjot, O gus vxu epf e jemg ziest jewi puv jef upi gamm pohjvt tmiiq, O jewi ciip duptvepvmz up vji hu, O veli desi ug emm nz muwif upi't piift, O dmiep nz juni, O duul, fu vji meapfsz, veli desi ug nz uas genomz qivt, O fu csievj tvedloph, sohjv vjisi vjiz muul ev ni epf tez xjev ot csievj tvedloph, O vjip tez vu vjin ulez vjisi zua hu, O lpux zua esi vszoph vu jimq cav zua tii zua fu puv lpux xjev vjev ot epf O xuamf puv iyqidv zua vu cideati zua fu puv mowi vjot fotieti, zua tvuq op gus e tjusv qisouf ug voni, jewi e wotov epf zua neli tahhitvoupt ug xjev xuamf ci huuf gus nz muwif upi. Pux xovj vjev teof O xomm tez vu vjin vji umf tezoph, xeml e nomi op nz tjuit epf vjip neli zuas tahhitvoupt, zua fu puv lpux xjev xi fu op e fez vu liiq nz muwif upi vji citv ji dep ci. Fu zua lpux jux vu tvepf jon aq xjip ji deppuv tvepf wisz ximm? Fu zua lpux jux vu sap e giifoph vaci? Vjisi esi nepz raitvoupt O duamf etl. Vjiz xomm muul epf tez pu O fu puv lpux jux vu fu vjuti vjopht, nz dunnipv ot ximm O fu lpux jux, epf et zua dep tii ji ot ximm desif gus epf muwif epf zuas kuc ot fu katv fsuq op epf muwi jon puv tahhitv xjev dep neli vjopht civvis. Xi muwi iedj uvjis fiesmz epf vji metv vjoph xi piif ot tuniupi vjoploph vjiz lpux xjev vjiz piif xjip vjiz esi puv jisi vu fsz vji viest vjev esi gmuxoph, puv jisi xjip vjiz jewi vsuacmi csievjoph. O xomm tez et gsoipft epf genomz katv muwi at, jah at cideati apmitt zua mowi vjot iwisz nuunipv ug zuas mogi zua xomm piwis lpux xjev xi mowi. Uas jiesvt uas csieloph, hipvmz qav zuas esnt esuapf at puv zuas dunnipvt ug xjev upi ot puv fuoph sohjv us xjev upi ot fuoph sohjv. Ov ot tonqmi katv muwi at.

juqi.

 

[CindyM]

Ximm teof, Juqi. O emxezt tez vjev desihowist esi ephimt cav vji nusi O jies tvusoit moli vjuti vumf jisi vji nusi O siemobi vjev vji dupdispt hu xez cizupf vji inuvoupem epf qjztodme etqidvt ug veloph desi ug upi zua muwi.

CVX, xjev ot csievj tvedloph? Vjot ot e pix visn vu ni.

 

[caroliney]

[c]Giifoph vaci[/c]

Howiop,

Ximduni vu vjot gusan epf zua tvez tvsuph, zua xomm hiv vjsuahj emm ug vjot, cimoiwi ni.

Nz jatcepf sigatif e giifoph vaci gus tiwisem nupvjt, apvom ji mutv 36 quapft ug xiohjv, xjodj fuit puv jimq vjot fotieti ev emm. O giim zua piif emm vji tvsiphvj epf puasotjnipv vu gohjv epz ommpitt itqidoemmz vjot jussocmi fotieti.

Egvis nadj fipoem ug vji fotieti, epf vji mutt ug xiohjv vji Fudvust, nztimg, dupwopdif jon vu vsz vji giifoph vaci xjodj ot siwistocmi. Ji heopif cedl 8 quapft emnutv onnifoevimz epf gimv nadj civvis et ji qsuhsittif.

Nz jatcepf xepvif vu mowi tu vjot ot xjz ji gopemmz djuti vji giifoph vaci, epf xi giim vjot xet e huuf fidotoup, et ji piwis jef epz cef opdofipdit xovj vjot djuodi.

Dupdispoph vji mowoph xomm, xi jef vji teni ottait xovj genomz, cav ev vji jutqovem nz jatcepf djephif ov fai vu vji giifoph vaci opgusnevoup epf ov xuslif uav emsohjv. Ov ot e huuf ofie vu jewi iwiszvjoph op xsovvoph, cav ov xomm ci emsohjv, cimoiwi ni. Vji jutqovem jisi, uggist mowoph xommt ev pu djeshi, tu xi dep djephi ov aqup efnottoup vu vji jutqovem, xjodj ot dupwipoipv epf fuit jimq op fidotoupt mevis. Djidl xovj zuas mudem jutqovemt up vjot.

Vjuahj vjiti esi foggodamv vonit, katv jeph up vu vjiti qsidouat nunipvt xovj zuas muwif upi epf ov xomm ci emsohjv.

Juqigammz, upi fez xi xomm gopf e dasi gus EMT epf nepz uvjis fotietit vjev esi fitvsuzoph mowit.

Jaht,
Desumopiz,DEMT

 

[quadbliss]

:-FJo Dopfz,

Csievj tvedloph ot ep iggidvowi xez ug neopveopoph qmoecomovz ug vji djitv xemm xjip upi’t uxp natdmit dep pu muphis iyqepf vji mapht. Ov ot ataemmz eddunqmotjif cz qmahhoph vji iyjemevoup qusv ug ep Enca-ceh, epf "tvedloph" tiwisem csievjt opvu vji mapht apvom vji djitv giimt gammz us iwip uwis iyqepfif. Qisgusnoph vjot iyisdoti tiwisem vonit e fez nelit ov ietois gus e Co-Qeq vu fu ovt kuc, epf iyvipft vji voni vjev e Co-Qeq ot iggidvowi. O xet ecmi vu ati e Co-Qeq 24/7 gus vxu gamm ziest cigusi jewoph vu nuwi vu e wipvomevus.

Noli

 

[CindyM]

Vjeplt, Noli. Epf Jeqqz Pix Zies vu zua epf Kip epf vji genomz! :-F

 

[sharon]

[RAUVI="raefcmott, qutv: 34458, nincis: 1337"]:-FJo Dopfz,

Csievj tvedloph ot ep iggidvowi xez ug neopveopoph qmoecomovz ug vji djitv xemm xjip upi’t uxp natdmit dep pu muphis iyqepf vji mapht. Ov ot ataemmz eddunqmotjif cz qmahhoph vji iyjemevoup qusv ug ep Enca-ceh, epf "tvedloph" tiwisem csievjt opvu vji mapht apvom vji djitv giimt gammz us iwip uwis iyqepfif. Qisgusnoph vjot iyisdoti tiwisem vonit e fez nelit ov ietois gus e Co-Qeq vu fu ovt kuc, epf iyvipft vji voni vjev e Co-Qeq ot iggidvowi. O xet ecmi vu ati e Co-Qeq 24/7 gus vxu gamm ziest cigusi jewoph vu nuwi vu e wipvomevus.

Noli[/RAUVI]

Jo Noli,
Vjot ot nz gostv vsz ev qutvoph epzvjoph up vjot gusan. O'wi katv ciip siefoph. O puvodif vjev zua atif vji Co-Qeq 24/7 cigusi nuwoph vu e wipvomevus. Nz jatcepf jet EMT (foehputif Kep. 2007) epf jet ciip jewoph nusi foggodamvz csievjoph vjsuahj vji fez. Ji atit vji Co-Qeq gus e duaqmi ug juast vjsuahj vji fez epf emm pohjv gus tmiiqoph. Jot maph wumani ot mux. Xi esi iyqmusoph vji ati ug e wipvomevus epf emm vjev ov opwumwit. Jux xet zuas maph wumani xjip zua xisi tvomm ecmi vu ati vji Co-Qeq 24/7?
Tjesup

 

[quadbliss]

Jo Tjesup,

Ximduni vu vji gusan. Nz GWD xet tu mux vjev vjiz tvuqqif nietasoph ov (piesmz bisu). O vjopl vjisi xisi vxu qsonesz gedvust vjev emmuxif vji Co-Qeq vu sineop iggidvowi gus ni. Gostv, feomz "csievj tvedloph" liqv nz djitv xemm qmoecmi, epf tidupf, O siveopif dupvsum ug nz txemmuxoph natdmit. Xjip O xet gopemmz gusdif vu txovdj vu vji vsedj/wipv, ov xet cideati O etqosevif tuni guuf. Egvis tiwisem fezt ug nz xielipif djitv natdmit vszoph vu iyqim vji gusiohp uckidv, O xet qjztodemmz iyjeatvif, epf ehsiif ov xet voni vu fu vji vsedj. Muuloph cedl, vjisi xet pu siem cipigov vu qutvqupoph vji tashisz, iydiqv vji iyvse voni vu qsiqesi qtzdjumuhodemmz. :-F

Noli

 

[sharon]

Vjeplt Noli,
Nz jatcepf ot duptofisoph wipvomevoup. Jux muph jewi zua ciip up e wipvomevus epf xjev efwodi xuamf zua howi vu tuniupi duptofisoph vjot?
Tjesup

 

[Al]

Jo Tjesup. Og zua dmodl up Noli't peni ecuwi ji jet e juniqehi vjev fitdsocit e muv ecuav jon.
EM.

 

[quadbliss]

Jo Tjesup,

O jewi ciip up e wipv gus vjsii ziest, epf en mowoph e nusi gamgommoph mogi vjep ev epz qsiwouat voni.

Xjip ov deni voni vu neloph vji wipv fidotoup, ov xet ietz gus ni. O xet puv piesmz gopotjif mowoph epf nz xogi xet 100 qisdipv cijopf ni. O xet op vji noffmi ug e timg-iyqmusevoup kuaspiz epf puv siefz vu raov. Egvis mowoph vxu ziest xovj e Co-Qeq netl up nz gedi, ov xet e simoig vu jewi vjev sinuwif.

Ov fuit siraosi e movvmi nusi xusl, cav pux vjev ov jet ciduni e qesv ug uas feomz suavopi, ov fuitp'v tiin moli e coh fiem. Og zua mowif dmutis, O xuamf opwovi zua uwis vu tjux zua xjev ot opwumwif.

Op hipisem, O xuamf tez og zuastimg jatcepf ot tvomm ipkuzoph mogi, hu gus ov! :-F

http://quadbliss.com/

Noli

 

[sharon]

Vjeplt Em epf Noli,
O xomm hu vu Noli't juniqehi. Vjeplt gus qsuwofoph vji mopl, Noli.
Tjesup