After my diagnosis, I contacted all the assisted suicide organizations, got the peaceful pill handbook etc. This was when I was mobile enough to actually commit suicide. I did not do it because my wife told me it would hurt her and my daughter more if I did it.
still not sure I understand why that would be harder than watching me die slowly, but that what was said,
> I've always thought that suicide is a selfish act because it causes so much suffering for the loved ones you leave behind. And, in so many cases, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary issue.
I agree with the first part of this, I guess that's what my wife was saying, but for our select group, I don't agree with the second part. We don't have a temporary issue, its permanent and its gruesome and it only gets worse day by day.
And in any case, I don't know of too many successful suicides done by rolling off the bed onto a rug 2 feet down. That's about my capabilities now.When I was looking I was shocked how hard it is these days to commit suicide with pills. The medications that you could do that with have been pulled from the market. With today's meds you'd wind up in the ER with your stomach pumped.
I actually asked my GP, who I have been going to for 30 years, if he could help me when the time came-he said that they could give me morphine so that I would die in peace, it just has to be done slowly so that there are no legal consequences, but you dont know that-you are asleep.