Pandora
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Apr 30, 2011
- Messages
- 130
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
- Diagnosis
- 01/2011
- Country
- US
- State
- Texas
- City
- Crowley
I can not think that it has been 7 months. I thought of him all day. I am going through a move at the moments (yes another one) and I really could have used his smile today. He always was a wonderful help. You know how many men (sorry guys) would just sit on the couch and let us gals do all the packing? Not my Hubby. He would do as much as me if not more. I miss the little things so much. I can not think it has been so long or so short. Some days it feels that we have been apart for years, and others it feels like yesterday. I am still on that roller-coaster up and down quick turns and blackouts. I miss him so much. I have made a resolve to be better, I just don't know how. I think I make small corrections to my life to save myself from a total derail, only to find out that I have made HUGE mistakes. I don't even want to go out with friends anymore, but then I plan that I want to have a Halloween party. Am I nuts? I can't have it both ways. I am no longer motivated to the small things in life that make it worth it. I shower, go to school, eat and that's about it. I dunno, maybe it will be a better day ...