Skipper, sorry you're still in a funk... it may be a good thing to change therapists, maybe get in a bereavement group? You still focus so much on the loss of your Mom, and now with your Dad it sounds like its brought out a lot of unresolved feelings...
I lost my Dad suddenly 13 years ago, I know it would have been much worse if it were my Mom, she's my lifeline. I also don't have a husband to rely on for much of anything, yet he moved back "home" when I was diagnosed. We've been separated a long time, yet I'm still the one to take care of the finances, etc. This disease really does suck, but you have to keep living your life too.
fingers are wearing out I need to hook up Dragon to this computer!