blzr503
New member
- Joined
- Dec 21, 2009
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- Reason
- Loved one DX
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- US
- State
- oregon
- City
- aumsville
Hi I'm new to this board but I appriciate it being here. My 78 year old mother was diagnosed with ALS last October but I believe she's had it for the last 2 years or so. During that time it was believe that a benighn brain tumor was the cause of her speech and swallowing problem that gradually caused her to lose her ability to talk altogther and now has to eat thru a peg tube. One of the saddest things about this is that up until the diagnosis last October she had a very positive outlook on everything but after hearing that she has suffered some major depression which is just heartbreaking.
I live with her and take care of her and I'm happy to do so, plus my six brothers and sisters do help and have been very supportive of her because she's a great mother and we'd do anything for her. The problem for me is that it's obvious that she's not going to get better and that this is going to take her life in the near future and it's beginning to way pretty hard and is very painful when I'm not always sure what to do for her, plus I've had a history of depression all my life and I worry once she does go I'll want to follow her because I worry about life without her.
I'm not really sure what I'm asking for but all of this is really painful and even though I knew it would come to this someday all the preparing in the world doesn't make the hurt any less noticeble. I go to therapy and attend a DBT group to help deal with anxiety and I don't let any of that interfere with helping my mother because right now that's most important. My therapist recommended that I come here and say what's going on with me so that's why i'm here, and I'm sure many of you have similar stories so by no means do I think I'm unique, i'm just worried how I'm going to handle all of this when the end actually comes. Thank you for letting me post here.
I live with her and take care of her and I'm happy to do so, plus my six brothers and sisters do help and have been very supportive of her because she's a great mother and we'd do anything for her. The problem for me is that it's obvious that she's not going to get better and that this is going to take her life in the near future and it's beginning to way pretty hard and is very painful when I'm not always sure what to do for her, plus I've had a history of depression all my life and I worry once she does go I'll want to follow her because I worry about life without her.
I'm not really sure what I'm asking for but all of this is really painful and even though I knew it would come to this someday all the preparing in the world doesn't make the hurt any less noticeble. I go to therapy and attend a DBT group to help deal with anxiety and I don't let any of that interfere with helping my mother because right now that's most important. My therapist recommended that I come here and say what's going on with me so that's why i'm here, and I'm sure many of you have similar stories so by no means do I think I'm unique, i'm just worried how I'm going to handle all of this when the end actually comes. Thank you for letting me post here.