Lorie
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- May 17, 2007
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- Mobile
Today I went to help with Tim. He was having problems breathing and I found the CPAP Co. didn't come to fix his machine three weeks ago when I called them. My Family didn't tell me. (he may have to go to the hospital). The phone # is on the machine. I called while I was there and they got it fixed. What is Breaking my Heart is Tim looked at me and cried and begged me to take him out of his suffering and misery. I got on my knees beside him cried and told him I wish I could. I hate it, I want so much to be able to do something for him. I use to think a slow progression was a good thing. Now I think it is just slow torment and living hell!
I am always so strong and Positive. But the fact of the matter is I feel, too. It takes a litttle more of me every time I see him. Which is often days every week. I wish so much that I could take care of him myself. I don't like him being at my Mom's. I have to give them instructions on everything and hope they do it and drill them. He rarely gets to see the Sunshine. I have put off for months going to the Funeral Home to make prior arrangements. I ,have to do it! Sometimes I wonder if having the Brains of this family is a mere curse.
By the way, I am taking the DIVORCE papers Tim's wife in WV sent him to our Lawyer next week. How much more can my brother take?
My Heart Aches do Bad!
Lorie
I am always so strong and Positive. But the fact of the matter is I feel, too. It takes a litttle more of me every time I see him. Which is often days every week. I wish so much that I could take care of him myself. I don't like him being at my Mom's. I have to give them instructions on everything and hope they do it and drill them. He rarely gets to see the Sunshine. I have put off for months going to the Funeral Home to make prior arrangements. I ,have to do it! Sometimes I wonder if having the Brains of this family is a mere curse.
By the way, I am taking the DIVORCE papers Tim's wife in WV sent him to our Lawyer next week. How much more can my brother take?
My Heart Aches do Bad!
Lorie