piperanne
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- Joined
- Feb 18, 2009
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- Reason
- Learn about ALS
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- AL
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- Mobile
I was terrified I had ALS. I still am, but as I posted in another post I'm 33. My reflexes were fine, I assume because he didn't say anything, banbinski fine, again he did'nt say anything. I should have inquired, but I was scared.
I take anti anxiety meds for anxiety ie. lorazepam if I need it. there can bee months I don't. I don't want to be addicted. I tell you the mind is a powerful thing. I've been praying to God (not trying to get religous) and I do believe he is showing me I do have a problem. A problem of reading into terrible things and then getting anxious over it. I need to quit looking things up and dwelling on it. I would of NEVER heard of Lou Gerihits (Sp?) except I was reading about MG because that is what my friend really believes I have, but until i get blood work done, it's not confirmed. She isn't a doctor either. She is just speaking from experience.
The night I learned of ALS was a night of shear terror. I had a terrible panic attack. This has become a bondage for me. The fear I feel reading and thinking omg, I have that symptom, omg, I have this one too........it's horrible. I look at my 12, 9, and 1 year old children and want to break down and cry. My mom is dead, my dad is dead, I've been feeling like I'm going crazy. I quit reading these for a while and became better, not as jittery, but wondering in the back of my mind if it's als. Yesterday while in Walmart my arms and legs began to burn like i was working them out, but they weren't sore afterwords........and I haven't had any problems today and then what did I do..........came back to different ALS sites to read and the repetition began again. I woke up this morning so depressed I didn't get out of bed until noon. I decided this is it. I'm not feeding this anymore. I'm not going to read these boards because of what it does to me emotionally. I thank GOd for the health I have today, tomorrow, and in the future. I am certainly in no way talking bad about those who do come to the board. This seems like an awesome support group and the people are so helpful and willing to answer questions! That is so great! But for me, I have to give my brain a rest. I have to start thinking more positively and maybe my life will be happier and not filled with depression and anxiety about ever illness that will kill me. I admire the people that do have ALS that come on the board and speak to people and give their stories. I think that takes courage and a very strong person...........I admire that so much! So anyway I just wanted to share this with others and if this helps one person then I've done my job. If anyone wants to talk, my email address is casprob at aol dot com.
I wish you guys good health!
Piper!:!:
I take anti anxiety meds for anxiety ie. lorazepam if I need it. there can bee months I don't. I don't want to be addicted. I tell you the mind is a powerful thing. I've been praying to God (not trying to get religous) and I do believe he is showing me I do have a problem. A problem of reading into terrible things and then getting anxious over it. I need to quit looking things up and dwelling on it. I would of NEVER heard of Lou Gerihits (Sp?) except I was reading about MG because that is what my friend really believes I have, but until i get blood work done, it's not confirmed. She isn't a doctor either. She is just speaking from experience.
The night I learned of ALS was a night of shear terror. I had a terrible panic attack. This has become a bondage for me. The fear I feel reading and thinking omg, I have that symptom, omg, I have this one too........it's horrible. I look at my 12, 9, and 1 year old children and want to break down and cry. My mom is dead, my dad is dead, I've been feeling like I'm going crazy. I quit reading these for a while and became better, not as jittery, but wondering in the back of my mind if it's als. Yesterday while in Walmart my arms and legs began to burn like i was working them out, but they weren't sore afterwords........and I haven't had any problems today and then what did I do..........came back to different ALS sites to read and the repetition began again. I woke up this morning so depressed I didn't get out of bed until noon. I decided this is it. I'm not feeding this anymore. I'm not going to read these boards because of what it does to me emotionally. I thank GOd for the health I have today, tomorrow, and in the future. I am certainly in no way talking bad about those who do come to the board. This seems like an awesome support group and the people are so helpful and willing to answer questions! That is so great! But for me, I have to give my brain a rest. I have to start thinking more positively and maybe my life will be happier and not filled with depression and anxiety about ever illness that will kill me. I admire the people that do have ALS that come on the board and speak to people and give their stories. I think that takes courage and a very strong person...........I admire that so much! So anyway I just wanted to share this with others and if this helps one person then I've done my job. If anyone wants to talk, my email address is casprob at aol dot com.
I wish you guys good health!
Piper!:!: