marya
Distinguished member
- Joined
- May 1, 2010
- Messages
- 115
- Reason
- Lost a loved one
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- Country
- US
- State
- TX
- City
- Houston
Today I am going to work for a meeting that has already been postponed twice because of various dr appointments and other als and husband related issues. I cannot put it off again - the CEO and president of the firm I work for have been beyond understanding, but I have to go to this meeting. Although I am not truly prepared for it...Why do I feel guilty? Not just about going to work, but for wanting to go to work - for wanting to have P&L and balance sheets to review, to make decisions about the direction the firm will go as we still deal with the financial crisis? These meetings usually break for lunch - I've scheduled it so that I can dash home to take lunch home for him - but I feel like I'm letting everyone down - not giving 100% on either of my commitments. This will be the first meeting since 1998 that I did not write the agenda, determine the topics, provide the direction and have significant input into the discussions. I feel like I'm losing it all the way around. I hope this is a passing guilt - and that it'll be better when I'm mired in the meeting. ....Mary