jayswife
Active member
- Joined
- Feb 11, 2016
- Messages
- 71
- Reason
- CALS
- Diagnosis
- 04/2014
- Country
- US
- State
- ct
- City
- stratford
Sunday he had a bad day - I guess he did because he cried but he won't tell me why he cried. I have no clue because he will not talk to me. I came home from work today and all of the bills were on the couch. Well clearly he didn't do that on his own. He had the caregiver get all the bills and read thru everything! I was late on two bills so he was nasty. I apologized and said they were paid but over a month late. I explained that everything is so overwhelming and I'm having a hard time keeping up with everything. I started to cry because I'm overwhelmed and I feel underappreciated. I'm tired of him not talking to me. I told him that emotionally I have so much going on in my head and I can't talk to him and that i wish he would talk to me or talk to someone about his feelings. He said he's fine. He's dying and he's ok with it. Of course him saying that made me practically hysterical. He wouldn't look at me so I went outside and then into the other room to work. I keep going in there trying to make him drink because he's always dehydrated but he's refusing just saying he's fine. He's barely eaten today and he's refusing that as well. I know he's doing this to spite me and it's making me so mad. I guess I should ignore it? He'll eventually eat. It's just so hard for me. I told him that my dad is bringing us a pizza from a pizza place we love and asked if he's going to eat it and he said no pizza is too hard for him to eat so I said I'll cut it up to make it easier and he said no, it's not that same that way so he's not eating. OMG I want to scream. I just don't have anyone to talk to this is all too much.