kmendsley
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Ok, First of all, I am on a restricted diet because I choke...as most of you I am sure can relate to. There is one treat for me that I have still managed to eat( well I kind of suck on it till it dissolves more than anything) besides being restricted to soft food diet. What is it?
Fudge Cookies...mmmm
Yeah weird I know, but I have a thing for chocolate and it curbs that craving.
Anyway, this is my treat that I buy myself and eat slowly but surely.
My brother's girlfriend...who is fine...I don't really have issues with her has been with my brother for about 6 years now. She finds herself to be quite at 'home' in our home and eats and drinks anything she can. Sometimes I wonder if she purposely comes to our house hungry to eat or wait to go out to dinner and eat an expensive meal...oh and she eats like a trucker. Seriously, she matches and sometimes eats more than my 22 year old brother. Anywho, she has been spending more and more time at our house and it is getting kind of annoying.
She used to stay couple hours...fine. This whole week though she would be staying an average of 6-7 hours during the day. Last night was the final straw. She rummaged through the pantry (mind you I hide my cookies in the back because others like to eat them) and she pulls out of the back my brand new cookie bag. She claims 'look what I found oreos!" (stupid she couldn't even read what they were) She takes them to the table, my brother says oh good and they get out the milk and go to town. I just stared at them and wondered how many they were going to eat. This morning I went to the pantry to see the damage and cried. They ate all but 3 cookies. A whole cookie bag gone. :sad:
As more of my body detoriates day to day there are just small things that keep you going, and keep you eating that is. She ate my food. She took that luxury away from me. Now, mind you I am sure it sounds to you all that I have EL like crazy right now and I am crying over a bag of cookies. But it is more than that. It is the fact that she took away my independence. My food. (By the way, there were 3 other kinds of brand new cookies in the pantry that were in front of mine..she pushed those aside). It just shows she doesn't respect me enough or our family to ask if it is okay to eat these. Or even say thank you after she has eaten a $25 steak at another nice restaurant that is paid for by my parents or myself. I am tired. I am tired of this stupid disease, I am tired and sad that one of the luxuries in my life actually is a bag of cookies. And the saddest thing is that she will never understand or get it. She is not stupid, but she is not bright either. She just says 'oh those were yours...sorry...you can get more later." I am tired of ignorant people. That is all.
Fudge Cookies...mmmm
Yeah weird I know, but I have a thing for chocolate and it curbs that craving.
Anyway, this is my treat that I buy myself and eat slowly but surely.
My brother's girlfriend...who is fine...I don't really have issues with her has been with my brother for about 6 years now. She finds herself to be quite at 'home' in our home and eats and drinks anything she can. Sometimes I wonder if she purposely comes to our house hungry to eat or wait to go out to dinner and eat an expensive meal...oh and she eats like a trucker. Seriously, she matches and sometimes eats more than my 22 year old brother. Anywho, she has been spending more and more time at our house and it is getting kind of annoying.
She used to stay couple hours...fine. This whole week though she would be staying an average of 6-7 hours during the day. Last night was the final straw. She rummaged through the pantry (mind you I hide my cookies in the back because others like to eat them) and she pulls out of the back my brand new cookie bag. She claims 'look what I found oreos!" (stupid she couldn't even read what they were) She takes them to the table, my brother says oh good and they get out the milk and go to town. I just stared at them and wondered how many they were going to eat. This morning I went to the pantry to see the damage and cried. They ate all but 3 cookies. A whole cookie bag gone. :sad:
As more of my body detoriates day to day there are just small things that keep you going, and keep you eating that is. She ate my food. She took that luxury away from me. Now, mind you I am sure it sounds to you all that I have EL like crazy right now and I am crying over a bag of cookies. But it is more than that. It is the fact that she took away my independence. My food. (By the way, there were 3 other kinds of brand new cookies in the pantry that were in front of mine..she pushed those aside). It just shows she doesn't respect me enough or our family to ask if it is okay to eat these. Or even say thank you after she has eaten a $25 steak at another nice restaurant that is paid for by my parents or myself. I am tired. I am tired of this stupid disease, I am tired and sad that one of the luxuries in my life actually is a bag of cookies. And the saddest thing is that she will never understand or get it. She is not stupid, but she is not bright either. She just says 'oh those were yours...sorry...you can get more later." I am tired of ignorant people. That is all.