Thank you for all of the replies.
I appreciate all of your responses. I needed some assurance, yes. If that need offended some people, I am sorry, It wasn't my intention to hurt you in anyway.
Also, I couldn't response to your responses before, because I am a caregiver, a single mother supporting two kids in college, a hard working woman in a very demanding job, and really no friends who can understand my jouney. It is not about me me and me, it is about a place where I can be silly sometimes because I am stress out and tired to be smart, trying to balance everything. My fiance doesn't want anybody other than me to take care of him. It is just hard, so please don't be hard on me too because I say or ask a silly question. Be compasionate to each other. Amen.