God Bless all of you! Thank you for the encouraging words and outpouring of love! I did say that this forum is what keeps me going and gives me a purpose in life. It has been my life line for a long time now and I love to try to help people. I have been blessed with many exciting emails where I have posted something that has helped someone. That is what gives my life purpose now.
I know and understand how hard it is for my wife and family to watch what is happening to me. That bothers me too. As the one who always took care of everyone it is hard to be the one having to be looked after. Sometimes they react inappropriately and I can understand that, but it is hard being the one causing pain for my family and there is nothing I can do about it.
Don't worry, I am here to stay for as long as I can contribute something.
I love you guys!