I agree with Ted.
( Those of you reading my response, forgive the repetitive use of this poster's name. I am using it in hopes of it being clear to scarany1)
It appears scarany1 does not understand English very well, and perhaps does not grasp some of the subtleties of our responses. That aside, scarany1 needs to be seen by some sort of health care worker who does speak scarany1's own language and is able to get scarany1 counseling.
scarany1, you need to find help for your fears. You need to talk to someone you trust. You need to get off of this forum, and stay away.
If you feel you absolutely must go on an internet forum, you should find one that supports people who have anxiety illness. That is you. You have anxiety.
There is no one here who can help you at all. I'm sorry. You have used up any patience I, or anyone else have. If you want help, scarany1, tell the nurse at your school you have anxiety and BFS and you need to talk to someone to overcome your fears.
good bye