I understand how you feel as my mother was just diagnosed 4 months ago. I agree with Al that the best place to start is the manual. The best thing you can do, is not try to figure out what the future will be like, or what it will bring, as everyone is different. It may take a while, but you will learn to take each day as it comes, and be thankfull for it. I know how hard this is as I to love my mother so very very much ( she is now living with us, so I can help her). I am doing my best to turn this into as possitive a situation as possible, by spending more QUALITY time with my Mom, that I probably wouldn't have if this hadn't happened. Even though my Mom and I have always been very close we are even closer now, and that is the possitive thing I try to focus on. Take care.