Danijela
Senior member
- Joined
- Dec 3, 2008
- Messages
- 667
- Reason
- PALS
- Diagnosis
- 11/2008
- Country
- UK
- State
- UK
- City
- Bolton
Dear Friends,
I have not logged on since August. My lovely Laurence passed away on 9 November, two days after my birthday. It was a difficult, drawn out death. I rarely speak about it. My son turned 4 on 15 January. He is very much like his dad, in spirit. Physically, he resembles me, according to friends.
We are at the point where we have had some of Laurence's ashes scattered in the cemetery, where his mum and dad's ashes are buried. The rest, according to his wishes, will be scattered on Cleveleys beach (West Coast of England), a place where he grew up. I envisage this to be a sunny, breezy kind of day.
I still have all of Laurence's possessions in the house. I am in no rush to get rid of things. I will gift some of his clothes to friends, and keep some for our son. I am at crossroads...wanting to make changes and yet feeling unable to make any significant decisions. I have not experienced any extreme emotions. I have taken antidepressants for several months prior to Laurence's death, so attributed my numbness to this. I have been off the medication since January and still feeling pretty numb.
Hoping to add some photos to my profile, to show you how grown up my son is now, so feel free to stop by.
Love to all, Dani
I have not logged on since August. My lovely Laurence passed away on 9 November, two days after my birthday. It was a difficult, drawn out death. I rarely speak about it. My son turned 4 on 15 January. He is very much like his dad, in spirit. Physically, he resembles me, according to friends.
We are at the point where we have had some of Laurence's ashes scattered in the cemetery, where his mum and dad's ashes are buried. The rest, according to his wishes, will be scattered on Cleveleys beach (West Coast of England), a place where he grew up. I envisage this to be a sunny, breezy kind of day.
I still have all of Laurence's possessions in the house. I am in no rush to get rid of things. I will gift some of his clothes to friends, and keep some for our son. I am at crossroads...wanting to make changes and yet feeling unable to make any significant decisions. I have not experienced any extreme emotions. I have taken antidepressants for several months prior to Laurence's death, so attributed my numbness to this. I have been off the medication since January and still feeling pretty numb.
Hoping to add some photos to my profile, to show you how grown up my son is now, so feel free to stop by.
Love to all, Dani