Sammantha
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I am getting scared...... I always had a bit of a hard time breathing after a full meal, but always thought it was due to gastro stuff, now i know better...... I used to have to walk/swim etc to get short of breathe or after a lot of heavy houswork.. This morning i had half a bowl of cereal and half a cup of coffee and felt real full and decided to do some housework as the laundry is piling up. I put in and took out two loads when i started ironing, as i stood still my abdomen felt like i had just done fifty sit ups and i could barely get breathes in. I tried to let it subside but it did not and sat down and began to cry... See the thing is i am starting a full time job Dec 1. I KNOW i cannot do it but i need the money so bad........ My pulmonary tests are so recent that my disability people will take another 45 days to review this new information. I will lose my house, car if i do not bring in money next month.... My mom is buying presents for the boys because we do not have any money this year, i am very greatful... They still believe in Santa and know that we cannot give them anything. My son wanted to ask Santa for Cable! I said Santa does not work that way..... All of this was rolling around in my head, then i sucked up my tears as i knew that getting a stuffy nose would make breathing harder. I pray everyday that i will be able to do this job i will be starting it is a receptionist/medical assistant literally four blocks from my house. I just pray he does not ask me to lift heavy things or move too quickly..... I am sorry for the downer thread but i cant discuss these feelings and thoughts with my family as they already know them and when they hear me or see me cry it gets them angry and upset..........Having a hard time breathing is one of the scariest thing in the world Sam