Axl,
You have what this forum is intended for incorrect. This forum is set up to help those with ALS, or their caregivers, with advice and help. For those wondering f they have ALS, the forum is here to answer a few questions, but once someone has been cleared of having ALS, such as yourself, that person is to move on and not try to seek help for what they think they may have, by way of using this forum. It is not up to the folks here to provide you with solutions. That is for your doctors to do. Please see a psychologist, as I feel that you will benefit from that more than you will chasing a disease you do not have.
I sincerely wish you the best. Take good care.